Falling Down Drunk

Last night was amazing. I haven’t had such fun in AGES. Although to be fair I haven’t been out in ages. It was a bit of a mad rush to get cleaned up, feed Abigail, bath both of us and get ready in time but I managed it. We started in Chicago Rock and made our way around from there! I got absolutely blind drunk, which really isn’t like me and I don’t usually like to, but seeing as I was drinking Bailey’s and all sorts it really isn’t surprising!! We went into ‘And Why Not’ at about 10.30 pm, where after another couple (alright maybe 4) glasses of Baileys I somehow managed to fall on my arse… in the middle of the pub! Hysterical! We was all pissing ourselves, I jumped up and it didn’t hurt at the time, (probably due to the amount of alcohol consumed!) but this today…. It kills…. I can barely walk!! It was a fantastic night and I thoroughly enjoyed myself! 

Went to Dad’s today to watch the Liverpool v Arsenal match and What a result!! Liverpool won 4 – 1!!! Amazing and the man of the match Peter Crouch got a hat trick!! So they’re now third in the league!! Woo Hoo!!

“He’s Big, He’s Red, His Feet Stick Out The Bed –

 PETER CROUCH!!”

 

Stevie G, Stevie G, Stevie G!

I’m still here!! I know it’s been a while again, but once again there’s nothing much to report!!

Gotta mention the England game last night…. Shocking doesn’t begin to cover it… how does it take an hour for England to score against the worst international side in the world? They’re part time footballers for crying out loud! Thank the lord for Stevie Gerrard that’s all I can say! Steve McLaren wants to be thanking him for saving his job. Bet he wishes he’d made him Captain now! I haven’t got anything against John Terry, but seems to me he can only lead a winning team… and he can’t spur them on when they aren’t performing well! Unlike Stevie G who has proven time and time again that he can bring Liverpool back from the jaws of defeat… just look at the historic 2005 Champions League final and last years F A Cup final. He’s the man we need to spur England on to victory! At least they won this one though… gotta be grateful for small mercies I suppose! It’s Liverpool v Arsenal Saturday so I’ll be going down to Dad’s to watch it! Should be interesting! 

I’m actually going out again Friday night! Shocking I know… it’ll be the first time I’ve been out into town since bloody xmas! It’s cos I’ve got a regular babysitter (in the form of Drew’s sister) so I can go out more often. And Abigail loves her so that’s a bonus. I’m going with Sue and some of her friends…. So should be a good night! 

Heard some interesting news last night… apparently the bint twathoop came up to see when he ended up at my house, is pregnant! How funny! You see, what goes around comes around doesn’t it! No less than they both deserve! And apparently he’s been sleeping with the sister of my next-door neighbour, who happens to be married! So next time they’re all bad mouthing me and giving me filthy looks I might just let that one slip!! 

Things are a little better at work… the atmospheres not bad at all this week (mainly cos my line managers on leave!) So at least I’m not completely dreading coming to work this week! I am looking for another job…. Seriously now! Everyone’s leaving so I’m not sticking around… plus nothing will ever change here! 

I’ll leave it at that for now… apparently I had more to say than I thought! Catch Ya Later X x X x X

New Theme

So I decided to have a little change for the blog! I was getting bored with the old theme, and I don’t know about you but I like it!  

I have calmed down slightly from the rant the other day! I’m still pissed off though! We went to Sue’s for the usual Chinese and Wine extravaganza on Friday and had an excellent time… as always! I don’t think we were AS wrecked as we usually get but we were still tipsy! Saturday, I went to Teversal Grange for one of the girls leaving do at work. It was a decent night. The food was scrumptious, and we had plenty to drink. There was a turn on that was absolutely shocking, singing songs from when my Grandma was younger than me I reckon! It was a laugh though. I think most of us enjoyed it! 

I didn’t really do much yesterday, Abigail went to Mum’s for her dinner, I didn’t go cos I’ve not been feeling well for a couple of days! I was a little bit thrown with the clocks going forward… it always confuses me for the rest of the day! I changed the clocks before I went to bed but it still didn’t feel right! Me & Abigail chilled out all afternoon and watched Children of Men (which, by the way is amazing). Then I was sat on the sofa, watching TV, minding my own business and who pulls up outside my house…. Twat hoop! He then proceeds to stand there for half an hour chatting to the next door neighbour! I was losing it… I had to go upstairs and put the washing away or I think I’d have gone out and said summat! Our Sue texted me and put ‘is that twathoop?’ so she was at her house losing it too! I mean, how very dare he stand outside my house with a stupid smug look on his face! Grr… so I went into Abigail’s room to put her clothes away, as I was shutting the curtains… he was staring at me… How Rude?? 

Anyway, it’s my last day off today…. Really don’t wanna go back! I’m just gonna chill out today… watch some tv!! Catch ya later X x X x X

Parenting is no place for the weak!

Well, I finally managed to get in touch with Abigail’s Dad. Shockingly he is unwilling to help me. Apparently he’s stoney broke…. Now bearing in mind he works for his Dad and has no rent/mortgage/bills to pay I find it hard to believe that all his wages are accounted for as he claims! He’s really upset me. I have NEVER asked him for anything as far as Abigail’s concerned. I try and defend him a lot, cos sometimes I think that he does want to be a father he just doesn’t know how to go about it. But I have now given him every opportunity to step up and he hasn’t. I mean, he could have contributed to the medical costs without ever meeting Abigail and so he could have accepted responsibility without having to do anything. If he won’t even do that, then I think that proves that I was a little deluded thinking he does care. Does this not prove that he is in fact a selfish, heartless bastard? I really don’t know why I bothered. I think some part of me wanted to believe that he did care for her, but obviously I was sorely mistaken! Well, I’m done now, he’s on his own. As soon as she’s old enough to understand I will make sure Abigail is fully aware of what a cunt he is, and if after she finds this out she still wants to find him, I will be more than willing to take her to him and let him face the wrath of a pissed off 16 year old!! I don’t see why I should have to answer the questions as to why he hasn’t been part of her life, it was completely his decision so he can be accountable for it! It’s time he grew up!! I can’t believe that after 5 years he still has the ability to upset and piss me off as much as this. I thought I was past this! I’ve always said he can behave how he likes towards me I’m old enough to take it and give it back, but I can’t understand why he’d spite Abigail! If I could turn the clock back to the fateful day, as a misguided 14 year old, when I got with him I think I genuinely would change things, but then I suppose I wouldn’t have Abigail! Grr…. It’s so hard! Why can’t things just be simple and straight forward. I envy people with their happy families, where mummy and daddy both love their kids and both share the responsibility. It’s just me here for Abigail, and at times like these I find myself sadly lacking in the ability to be a parent!! Its Just So Fucking Difficult!! 

That’s all I have today… Just had to get that rant out!

More antibiotics for Abigail!

Abigail’s got tonsillitis – Again!! We were back at the Dr’s yesterday morning and she’s now on her third course of antibiotics in 6 weeks… great! The GP still won’t refer her to the hospital though! He still says she’s too young blah blah blah! I’m still of the opinion that she’d be better getting them out now, and then she won’t even remember it! I suffered with my tonsils when I was younger and they didn’t take mine out til I was 11 and I can remember being in a lot of pan and I missed a lot of school. I don’t want it to be the same for Abigail! I think I’m gonna pay for a private consultation… If the ENT consultant says she’s too young then I’ll accept that but I know people who’s kids had there tonsils out when they were 5 or 6 and by the time she’s referred and is on the Waiting List and everything she’ll be turned 5! The GP just looked at me like I was an over-protective parent and I was exaggerating! Maybe I am… but I know she’s poorly!! Grrr, made me mad. Then got even more mad cos I thought I’d text her Dad to see if he’d be willing to share the cost of the private treatment and shockingly he ignored me! I’ve never asked him for anything where Abigail’s concerned, I think it’s time he stepped up and became a father for fucks sake… I reckon 5 years is long enough for him to get his head round it!! I had to come to terms with becoming a mum in a lot less time than that!!   I didn’t make it into work yesterday, Abigail wasn’t well enough to go to school, she slept most of the day bless her! So I’m on leave now, although I am going in this afternoon for a meeting, but I’ll get that time back!  I’ve just got back from
Mansfield with Mum and Carly. Mum’s got her outfit for Carly’s wedding now, so she’s all sorted. She tried it on and looked lovely! It’s not long now til the wedding!! We’ve got to go soon to have the alterations made to our dresses and get Abigail and the other little bridesmaids fitted for theirs! I’m quite looking forward to it cos I’ve lost 1 ½ stone now so it’ll be interesting to see what my measurements are now compared to when I got measured after xmas! I treated myself to some new t-shirts from Bay while I was in town! I got one of them Rolling Stones ones which I love! It’ll look excellent with my jeans! 

Oh, here’s the picture of the ‘Best Mum’ flower Abigail got me for Mother’s Day!

  Anyway… That’s all for now! Catch ya Later X x X x X

Nothing Exciting to Report

I realise I’ve not blogged for a few days, but there’s not really been much to say! There still isn’t to be fair! I’m getting ready for my time off… tomorrow will be my Friday! Yay! Although, Mum’s just rung and said Abigail wasn’t very well when she dropped her off at school this morning, so I’m half expecting them to ring and say she needs collecting! I’ve got her an appointment at the Dr’s in the morning. I’m not gonna be very happy if she needs antibiotics again cos that’ll be three courses she’s had in the past 5 weeks. It can’t be doing her any good surely. I’m gonna ask the Dr to refer her to the hospital. The last time I asked he said she was too young, but she can’t carry on like this can she??

 We had a lovely Mother’s Day Meal, my sister, her boyfriend and my nephew were there, and it was nice for us all to be together. I got a lovely ‘Mum’ mug and a flower with ‘Best Mum’ on (picture to follow) from Abigail!! After dinner we went and watched the second half of the Liverpool v Aston Villa match with Dad…. It finished 0 – 0 but Liverpool played shite!! I couldn’t believe it was the same team as played against Barcelona!! I don’t know why they can’t play the same as they do in the Champions League in the Premiership!! I’ve seen Sunday League teams play better than they did against Aston Villa! 

I’m actually going out this weekend (gasp) one of the girls at work is going off on maternity leave next week so we’re going to Teversal Grange for her leaving do! I am quite looking forward to it! I’ve got a babysitter and she’s sleeping at mine. It’s Drew’s sister and it’ll be the first time she’s baby-sat but hopefully she’ll be ok and she’ll do it on a regular basis! Cos our Andy’s going to Magaluf in May for a stag weekend so me and Sue will be out all that weekend!! Wah Hay!!! Bring it on!! 

I think Chelle’s coming over tonight for a cuppa while Matt’s at football so that should be nice… Save us both being sat in alone!! It’s only 2 weeks on Saturday til we go and see Sugababes!! Exciting!!

Catch Ya Later X x X x X

Sunday Again…. Already??

I had a call from Abigail’s Dad yesterday (I call him that only because he’s not really the ex anymore, not because he’s ever been a dad). I’ve not heard from him in a while but I was half expecting to hear from him as his current bint has gone of repping this week. He was full of shit as usual, going on about how loved up he is and how he’s going out to see her soon. Why he feels the need to tell me this I’m not quite sure. I asked him if he’d given his daughter any thought, and shockingly he said ‘no’, he’s been too busy apparently! Busy?! How can he say he is busy, when I’m the one working full time and bringing up his daughter? Oh he pisses me off!! Every time I speak to him he manages to say something that annoys me.  

Of course it’s Mother’s Day today, not that you’d know it in our house at the minute! Cos Abigail’s only 4 she can’t really do much! We’re going down to mum’s shortly and I think I may have a card or something there! We were supposed to be going to Frankie & Benny’s for a meal tonight for Mother’s Day but when I rang up they said they could fit us in but it would be packed so we thought we’d have dinner all together at mum’s today and go out next week when it’ll be quieter and a little more enjoyable! 

When we got back from shopping yesterday Abigail was asleep in the car and she looked sooo cute that I took a picture. I popped up to Au Natarale yesterday while we were out cos I’ve been looking for something nice to put at the top of the stairs and I got this lovely vase and twigs… I think it finishes the stairs off.

   

I can’t believe it’s Sunday already, back to work tomorrow. But, I’m only there 3 days this week AND my line manager is only the in the office tomorrow afternoon and not at all Tuesday or Wednesday so that’s a bonus! Then I’ve got Thursday, Friday and the following Monday off! Can’t wait! 

Anyway… We’re off to mum’s for lunch then gonna watch Liverpool v Aston Villa (well at least the second half hopefully) at Dad’s! Catch Ya Later X x X x X

The Best Bubble Bath in the World

I’ve got to tell you about this GORGEOUS bubble bath I’ve tried. It’s Radox, and it’s a limited edition range called ‘Heart Warming and it’s raising funds for the British Heart Foundation. I used it for the first time last night and it’s lovely. It’s Red and makes your bath water take on a reddy/pink colour and it made my skin feel all soft and lovely!! If you see it, you really MUST try it!!

 

I had my meeting this morning with the Manager and my line manager and it really was just about the meeting that I minute. So that pissed on my strawberries didn’t it!! They were both very nice to me so I guess everything must be ok!

It was Parent’s Evening last night and Abigail is a very clever girl! They said she’s working about average in all subjects, which is even more impressive cos she’s only just gone up to full time and she’s not even 5 til August. So the teachers are very impressed with her and I was a very proud mummy last night! They also said she’s a very good child in general and she’s a pleasure to have around and that’s I’m obviously doing an excellent job at home! It’s nice to hear things like that, it just reassures me a little, cos I get a bit worried that I’m not doing enough for her sometimes! So Abigail got lots of praise and treats last night!

We went to see Jodie last night, it was nice to catch up with her again. She always makes me smile! She was showing me where she’s getting married cos it’s not long now til the wedding. It looks like absolute paradise! Jealous!

I spoke to my Mum last night about the bizarre experience I had the night before, and apparently I used to do that sort of thing in my sleep when I was younger. She said she’d very often come in my room and find my doing bizarre things like trying to turn the radio off with my trousers! But she said I could speak to her and that while I was doing it – How odd?!?!

Not got much planned for the weekend… I think we’ll be going to Sue’s tonight for the Chinese/Wine night as we didn’t get one last week… I really missed it to be honest! Then Food Shopping tomorrow… AND the final of Dancing on Ice – Oh the excitement!!

Catch Ya Later X x X x X

Westlife….

Me and Chelle had a great night at Westlife on Tuesday. We went to TGI’s and I had the biggest burger I’ve ever seen. It was scrummy!! The concert was fab, we got to the arena at about 7.45 pm and for some unknown reason we had to park about 400 miles away from the arena, despite the fact that there were obviously spaces available at the front!! Anyway, after walking for about an hour to get to the arena we caught the end of one of the support acts…. Don’t know what/who they were but it was shocking…. It was a man/woman duo and she just kept screaming, it sounded like someone was strangling a cat! Westlife were Excellent!! All of them were looking mighty fine… but Nicky was looking extra specially HOT!!! They were fab on stage and even threw some dancing in which was cool!! A good night was had by all! I’m now uber excited for when we go and see Sugababes… We’re planning on going to TGI’s for tea then too…. And we are sat 6 rows from the front then!!

 Work is much the same as it was… My line manager’s been out of the office a lot this week so things haven’t been quite as tense. The department manager has put a meeting in with me and my line manager tomorrow morning. He says it’s about the papers and agenda for one of the meetings I minute, but I’ve been doing this meeting for over a year now and we’ve never had a meeting about it before, so I’m a little suspicious. Especially in light of recent events!

I’m STILL not sleeping properly and it’s really getting me down now! I had the most bizarre experience last night. I finally fell asleep at 3.30 am this morning, I woke up at 4, in a cold sweat, absolutely convinced that there was this huge bug thing in my bed. I was awake and aware of what I was doing, but I was stripping my bed, I took the pillows out the cases and all sorts… It wasn’t til I was going through the pockets of my dressing gown looking for this creature that I like had a moment of clarity and though ‘Hang on, what am I going’. I had to have a bath, the sweat was just running off me and I couldn’t get back in bed. How weird is that? I hope it doesn’t happen again!! Proper freaked me out! 

I’ve got Abigail’s parents evening tonight. I am quite looking forward to it cos I think she’s getting on really well and it’ll be nice to hear the teacher say how well she’s doing and how clever she is!!

Catch Ya Later!! X x X x X

SSDD (Same Shit, Different Day)

It seems my bad luck is destined to continue forever… Why, just for once, can’t things go according to MY plan?!?!

 There’s still a bad atmosphere at work. My work mum is back and she’s taken the situation in hand but I’ve got a feeling things are going to get worse before they get better!! I think it’ll take someone proper losing it for anything to get sorted out and if that doesn’t happen then this tension and atmosphere is just going to carry on. Our manager won’t do anything though. Me & Nat are stuck between a rock and a hard place cos the only person that can sort the situation out is the manager and he doesn’t like upsetting anyone. Well I’m sorry, but sometimes, as a manager, you have to do certain things that may upset certain people but it’s necessary for the good of the department. I can’t imagine that anyone is working as they should be cos everyone’s got issues that need resolving.   

My brothers been discharged – AGAIN. He’s not back in yet as far as I know either so that’s an improvement on last week. I feel a little guilty cos I haven’t been to see him since he was re-admitted but I’ve had so much else on and I really begrudge giving up what little time I get to myself to go and see him. He obviously don’t want any help so what’s the point in trying?  

There’s been BIG fallings out in the family too. Sue’s mum has been ill for some time, but she won’t do anything about it. She’s lost loads of weight and is now less than 7 stone, Sue went to see her Sunday and was really worried, she said her mum looked like she was just dying before her eyes. So, yesterday, Sue went to she her Mum’s GP, told him everything that’s been going on and he wanted to admit her to hospital. Sue went up and explained this to her mum who then started shouting at Sue for going behind her back. Which, I can understand, to a degree, but Sue is REALLY worried about her, and she clearly isn’t doing anything to help herself (she won’t eat, she’s cancelled her out patient appointment) so Sue felt she HAD to do something. Anyway somehow, my Mum got dragged into all this and now Sue’s Dad (Who is also Mum’s brother) had a go at my mum. So I was at work yesterday and everyone was ringing me and I was getting it from all sides! Great Stuff. The upshot of it was, Sue’s Mum didn’t go into the hospital so nothings changed.

 Sue was telling me Sunday (before all this family trouble kicked off) that she was talking to my sexy next-door neighbour… and he told her that his wife has told him he’s not ALLOWED to talk to me anymore! How funny is that?? I kinda get the impression something was said about Twat Hoop as well, but she didn’t say, which, must mean it’s bad! I could just be being paranoid though! 

Me & Chelle are off to the Westlife concert tonight – Exciting!! And TGI’s for tea!! Woo Hoo… I’m looking forward to a nice, straight forward night where I don’t have to worry about anything!!  

Catch ya later! X x X x X