Busted Hand!

So, ya definitely need to be careful ya wish for… as I learnt yesterday! Remember I’ve been moaning about not wanting to go to work… I fell over in the kitchen yesterday morning and smashed my hand in! A few years ago I had an accident and ended up having my hand pinned, I think when I banged it yesterday I’ve aggravated that old injury! I did it yesterday morning before work, but I thought it’d settle down so I went to work. But by 10am my hand was very deformed and very painful, so, following some advice from Chelle I went down to A & E. I wasn’t waiting down there very long, they took me straight through to see the Dr! Chelle was in A & E with her mum at this point and kindly offered to stay with me! I was x-rayed and they couldn’t find any bone injury so they decided I’d probably damaged the nerves and I needed to be seen by the ‘hand specialist’…. At fooking Derby Hospital!! So Chelle… being the mega mega friend that she is, said she’d take me! How kind of her ay?? Thanks so much again for that mate! You’re a star! So we have to take my car from work to Matt’s work in order to pick Chelle’s car up! Then we set off on our Road Trip… and let me tell ya… Derby Hospital is not easy to find… I’m sure Chelle will agree with me on that one!! But, we made it there eventually!! I saw the Dr and after yet more x-rays he says he thinks I’ve “damaged” one of the bones, causing swelling, which has compressed the nerves! So I’m not in pot!! On my Right hand of course so I’m more than slightly incapacitated!! I’ve got to go back next Wednesday to see if it’s settled down any and take it from there, but I’m off work for at least a fortnight!! 

I’m now struggling to do everything one handed… Had some right fun trying to have a bath last night! And brushing my hair was a right treat! Guess I’ll just have to manage.. I can’t rive though, so I’ll be walking everywhere! That’ll be a shock to the system!! And writing this post is taking about a week cos I can only type with one hand! 

Tonight, Ally and Chelle are coming over for our girlie night! Which I’m now looking forward to even more!! Got loads of yummy nibbles in for us! And I’ve been and got Chelle a bit of a present to say thanks for everything she did yesterday!! 

Catch ya later X x X x X

Skiving Day

Well I haven’t been to work today and I went home early yesterday. I don’t normally like to do this but I think it’s the new job and I have no motivation to be there. I’m going back tomorrow though, suppose I’ve gotta show willing ay? Plus I need to get in touch with my old manager to sort out going back. And, we’re having a ‘fuddle’ tomorrow cos my new line manager’s retiring so that will break the day up a little, then there’s only Friday left… And I should just about be able to manage that! 

I’ve been in a really down and depressed mood just lately and I think it all stems from the fact that I’m unhappy at work… hopefully if I get sorted with my old manager I’ll cheer up a little! I don’t wanna carry on feeling low cos I know I’ll end up doing summat stupid and texting someone I don’t wanna text in an attempt to cheer myself up! I do have something to look forward to though, Friday night, Ally & Chelle are coming over for a girly night! I’m soooo looking forward to that. I’m gonna pick up loads of nibbles and cheesecake for us to munch on! It’s been a long time since we all caught up and had a proper girly chat! 

Just about had a heart attack earlier. Abigail was out playing on the front garden with her little friends after school, I went outside to put some rubbish in the bin and out of nowhere she just runs across the road, straight into the path of a reversing car! Fortunately the car stopped and she made it onto the kerb, but I shit myself! She got in some proper trouble… I don’t know how many times I’ve told her not to go on the road, we live on a cul-de-sac so there’s a pavement all the way round, there’s no need for her to cross the road!! So she’s not allowed out for the rest of the week, and I spent 25 minutes talking to her about the dangers of the road! I still don’t think its sunk in yet! 

I was cooking tea after I’d had a heart attack and made Abigail come in, when there was a knock on the door. I thought it was one of Abigail’s friends coming to see if she could play out again (they’d took it in turns to ‘call out’ for her) so I stomped through the house and opened the door, it wasn’t one of Abigail’s friends… It was this youth… he says “Plasterer for ya duk?”, I stand there looking confused and he says “have I got the wrong house?” I say “Hmm, yeah I think so, which number were you looking for?” He says “ It was definitely this street… I thought it was this house!” Now normally I would probably have started to get a bit annoyed with him at this point but the ‘plasterer’ was HOT and I wanted to help him!! I say (with a certain amount of flirting in my voice) “No, I think I would’ve remembered that!’ So I proceed to help him remember which house he actually went to a few days ago which turned out to be next door but one!! So that was the highlight of my day… the hot plasterer didn’t really respond to my flirting but he certainly brightened my day up! Lol!! 

Catch ya later X x X x X

Still Tired… But now pissed off too! Great!

I’m back at work now and I’m still tired but now, to add to my problems I’m also in the WORST mood ever! I don’t even know why really…. Just feel proper pissed off like I might loose it any second and fly at someone!

 It doesn’t help that it took me 2 fooking hours to get to work this morning… Honestly… we have all this rain and the country comes to a grinding halt… its only water for fooks sake! All the roads I normally take to get to work were flooded. So everything was moving at a snails pace! Then get to work and have to walk from the car park to work so by the time I get here I’m soaking… Mint! 

I still hate my new job and also 95% of the people I work with. So much so that I’ve emailed my old manager to see about going back. He says there’s a possibility of it being re-graded to the band I’m on in my new job, then I can reapply for it. I’m going round to speak to him tomorrow about it! So watch this space!! 

I’m hoping my bad mood will bate off soon… I hate feeling like this.. Although judging by the weather the roads out will be just as bad and it’ll take me as long to get home! Even Minter!! I haven’t got any plans for tonight…  Hoping for some piece and quiet cos last night our street turned into boy racer central… The next door neighbour is selling his car…. So 6 ‘youths’ turned up to look at it… but they came in 5 cars… (point?!?!) then proceeded to rev their stupid boy racer cars up on the street, disturbing Abigail. I have a couple of qualms with this… Why does it take 6 ‘youths’ to look at a car? Clearly only 1 of them is going to buy it… Why do they have to come in 5 cars? Why not all get in one car?… And Why do they then have to rev their cars up… it doesn’t make them look big or clever… the only thing it’s likely to do is piss me off, causing me to lose it once and for all… which in the mood I’m in… would not be a good thing! So hopefully they won’t be back tonight… although the way my days going they’ll be 10 of them there tonight! Great! 

Catch ya later X x X x X

Oh So Tired!

Well, the weekend is now almost over and that means its back to work tomorrow. Great. I swear to God, those last 3 hours on Friday went slower than the two days of the weekend put together. I have to be honest, I’m not enjoying my new job as much as I was. I’m doing the same thing all day every day and its sooooo boring! I know they were having a meeting about my old job last week, and I am proper tempted to go back! If they re-grade it to what I’m on now, I think I really seriously would go back. I can’t be doing with this boring task 8 hours a day, 5 days a week forever! At least what I was doing before was slightly taxing on the brain, I mean Abigail could do what I’m doing in the new job! Plus there was a bit of variety in the old job! We’ll see though ay? 

Friday night we ended up going to Sue’s for a Chinese. Had a fabulous night, it was a proper laugh as always! When our Andy came in from the club he decided, in his drunken wisdom, that it would be a great idea to steal my phone and ring Ally at 11.30 pm (sorry again about that mate!). So, I nicked his phone and stole his mates number (who is HOT by the way) and was texting him! Pay back!! 

Apart from that I’ve not really done much this weekend, (the usual housework and shopping aside of course… oh the excitement!) I don’t know what’s been up with me, but I’ve been sooooo tired all weekend. I slept more than 11 hours both Friday and Saturday night and 4 hours this afternoon and I’m still dead on my feet knackered! It’s a trial to just walk to the kitchen. I’ve not felt this tired in a long, long time. Maybe I’m coming down with summat, my heads been killing me all weekend too, I don’t know, but I hope it passes soon, whatever it is! 

Catch ya Later X x X x X

3 hours and 15 minutes and counting to the weekend!

I think everything is sorted with twathoop now. The last bit of unfinished business between us is done. He came round to mine again last night and filled me in on what had happened, so I’m satisfied that it’s finished now. He was very friendly with me, and was texting me all yesterday morning and again last night… So I don’t know if he thinks we’re gonna carry on how we were before and he’s trying to sweeten me up to achieve this… But I’ve got news for him… I’m not prepared to carry on as we were, so he can forget it. I think next weekend will be the telling time cos potentially he could come round, so I’ll have to see how I react to that as and when it happens, but hopefully I’ll be strong enough to turn him away! Watch this space!

 In light of all this, I’m feeling rather positive about life in general. Like, I can finally move on and maybe even meet someone new. That would be nice wouldn’t it!  Nat came over to see me last night. We had a lovely night, takeaway and a proper girly chat! What more can ya ask for? Its always lovely to see her now… I miss not seeing her and speaking to her everyday! 

It’s Friday… and I’m soooo pleased! I’m really ready for the weekend. Its only 1.45 pm though and I’ve got an awful feeling that this afternoon is gonna proper drag! Great… 3 Hours, 15 minutes and counting to the weekend!! I’m shattered and looking forward to another peaceful weekend of chilling out!! 

Catch ya Later!

Seen twathoop… and I’m still done!

So, I should have known summat would have to happen to throw a spanner in the works of my peace and tranquility really shouldn’t I? Twathoop text me last night to see if he could come over tonight to pick that stuff… After much soul searching I decided to let him, for one, I felt I needed some sort of closure on it all and if I didn’t get it, I felt that the option of one of us getting back in touch with the other would always be ‘on the table’ so to speak… and for two, I couldn’t very well say no ya can’t come after how much I’ve banged on about it for the past two weeks! So he’s just been and it wasn’t as bad as I imagined! We were civil to each other.. he asked how I’d been, I said ‘fine, you?’ he said he’d been ok and was telling me that his mum is on holiday so he’s been having to cook and clean for himself (arr… don’t ya feel sorry for him at 28 !) Then we spoke about the stuff he had to pick up and he went! I don’t know if it’s the closure I needed but, I still feel that I don’t wanna see him, and I think I can move on now so that’s gotta be a good sign ay? As I’ve said before… when all this current shit is sorted, if he happens to turn up here I don’t know if I’ll let him in or not… but I know I don’t want to let him in, so I hope I can be strong enough to turn him away… But only time will tell on that one! That’s about it for now folks…. See ya soon… X x X x X

Peace & Quiet reigns supreme!

The quiet relaxed weekend I hoped for prevailed! Yay! Still no news from twathoop, which is excellent. Its been almost 3 weeks since I’ve seen him now and I’ve survived. I’ll just be glad when Thursday’s over and done with, cos hopefully, then, the last bit of unfinished business between us will be over and done with. I can then completely forget about him, and move on!

 Friday night, we went to Sue’s for the Chinese and Wine! We haven’t had one for a while with one thing or another so that was really nice. We weren’t too late coming home either. Saturday, I got up and pottered about with the washing and everything, funniest thing happened… Went onto the garden to peg the washing out, and the majority of my garden is decking, I fell, arse over tit, cos the decking gets really slippery when wet! I had nothing on but my dressing gown, so it’s a good job my gardens enclosed and no one can see in!! I felt like a right twat! Hurt my arm and leg as well!! Great stuff! So I had a nice hot bath to soak my aching muscles, then went into town with Sue. Got Dad his Father’s Day present, I got him a gorgeous Yves Saint Lauren t-shirt from me, and Abigail got him a ‘Bestest Grandad’ Mug. I got Abigail some lovely new clothes in the Debenhams Sale… Cos she’s gone into age 5 – 6 everything looks so much more grown up. When she got home and tried them on I couldn’t believe how much bigger she looked! Its scary really… I mean she’ll be 5 in August! After that I didn’t do much else, just chilled out on the sofa really… and again on Sunday! It’s amazing how much more relaxed I felt cos I wasn’t sitting about waiting for twathoop to text or come over!  

We did go down to see Dad on Sunday, with it being Father’s Day. He was thrilled with his presents, but he was even more made up with the fact that Abigail had written on the card all by her self. She’d wrote ‘To Grandad, Love From Abigail’ and he thought it was brilliant! It was nice cos both my sisters were there and my nephew, so all Dad’s kids and grandkids were together with him for a couple of hours on Father’s Day (apart from my brother, but after his behaviour over the years, I don’t count him anymore). I really really love my Dad. I know that may sound like a redundant statement cos most people do, but I love how well we get on and I know that if I ever needed him, he’d be there. More so, than even my mum now, she’s too wrapped up in her own life most of the time. I think if I ever had an emergency now, I’d automatically ring Dad. That’s why it breaks my heart that Abigail has no relationship with her Dad, cos mine is such a massive part of my life, but people have different relationships with their parents, people I know that have little or no relationships with their Dad and it hasn’t done them any harm and hopefully, it will just mean that she and I are closer because it’s always just been us two. To be perfectly honest, as much as I would like Abigail to know her Dad, for her sake, on a purely selfish level, I’m sort of glad she doesn’t, because for one, I don’t have to share her! And 2, knowing the sort of person he is, he would never be a positive influence on her life nor would he be a good role model. 

Got a little bit deep and meaningful there and I didn’t really intend to! Ooops!! 

Catch ya later X x X x X

Nits… Again!

I can’t believe its Friday again… The weeks just flown! Not that I’m complaining… cos that means it’s the weekend!! Not really got much planned this weekend… its Father’s Day Sunday and I haven’t got a present or anything for my Daddy yet, so I’ll go into town tomorrow… but apart from that I’m planning a quiet chilled out weekend!

 Twathoop text me last night… still being a twat basically! All he’s done is irritate me more! So, I’m looking forward to a weekend where I’m not waiting for him to text/come round for a change… that’ll be a welcome relief I can tell ya.  

Abigail came home from school on Wednesday and she’d got fooking nits! I hate them! There were loads as well… Pisses me off cos I check Abigail’s hair EVERY day, but clearly, some scutty parents don’t bother to do the same with their scutty children, so Abigail ends up with them! It took me 45 minutes to de-nit her and he scalp was red raw by the time I’d finished bless.. she was a super good girl though and sat still for all that time. So off she went to school Thursday morning, with the cleanest head ever… she’d only fooking got them again last night!! I was losing it, trouble is, by the time I’d got home, there was no one at school for me to ring and kick off at! So I’ve de-nitted her again… only took half an hour this time!! And if she comes home with the crawlers again tonight, heads will roll Monday morning! I’m not having it!! 

I haven’t seen anything else of my sexy builder friend sadly… As ya may have noticed its been raining non-stop since about Wednesday and apparently the builders don’t turn out in the rain (wimps)! So I’m slightly disappointed about that! 

Oh, the CSA have finally got their arses in gear… got £40 in my account this morning… but that’s still on 2 weeks money and I’m now owed 4… so still missing another £40!! But anything’s better than nothing I suppose!  

Catch ya later… X x X x X

Still done…

You’ll be pleased to hear that since Twathoop has still not bothered to get in touch, not even to say thank you for sorting that shit out for him, I’m still done… I’ve deleted his number so I won’t be tempted to text him or anything. He’s on his own with it now… I’ve done all I’m gonna do for him! I will no longer be taken for a twat! It still remains to be seen how strong I am if he does turn up or get in touch but I can honestly say with how I’m feeling now, it won’t make the slightest bit of difference!

 On the plus side, I’ve been dropping Abigail off at my sisters this week cos my mum’s on holiday… There’s a lot of building work being done on the street and I think I’ve pulled myself a builder! I saw him yesterday and thought how cute he was… Then today, I made an extra effort to look good and he was definitely checking me out (if I do say so myself!) so… hopefully I’ll see him tomorrow and maybe even talk to him! Lol!! Still, just the fact that he was checking me out makes me feel better! Although, seeing as I’m attracted to him, there must be something not right about him… I do only tend to attract twats! 

Works still going well, the days are flying and I can’t believe it’s Wednesday already! I’m loving actually enjoying coming to work again! I have already booked some time off though! Lol! I’m off all the last week in July, which is the first week of the 6 weeks holiday, meaning I get to spend loads of time with Abigail. I really looking forward to that… Planning some trips out and everything. Should be lovely!

 Oh… just remembered… how annoyed was I at 11.45 pm last night?? My phone rang while I was tucked up in bed asleep, with a number I didn’t recognise and this bloke with a Chinese-type accent says ‘Is Hassan there?’… Er no… So he says ‘What number is this’ , You rang it love, you tell me… so then he starts babbling on about ‘Hassan’ giving him this number… great I say, but ya know he’s not here… ‘are ya sure’ he asks… Erm, fairly sure love, I’ll just check under the quilt for ya shall I?? Grr! I hate being woke up!!

Catch ya later X x X x X

Am I really done? Again?

Well, here I am again. In a position I don’t wanna be in, making the decision I don’t want to make… again! I’ve not seen anything of twathoop since last Friday when we had ‘the conversation’. I was foolishly deceived by how nice he was, and believed that things were getting somewhere between us. Since then, he’s supposed to have been coming back Friday night and didn’t. said he’d come round Saturday night and once again… didn’t. I spoke to him Monday about the mess that we’ve been in and I’d sorted his end out for him, went out of my way to make things as easy for him as possible. All he had to do was come and pick some stuff up from mine. He said he’d come this Friday to get it… he didn’t. He said he’d call over the weekend and guess what…. He didn’t. I text him Saturday to see when he was coming, he replied on Sunday morning, said he’d been working and he’d call after work on Sunday… but he didn’t. I sat in all afternoon waiting for him and he didn’t show. I text him at about 8.30 and said ‘are ya coming to get this stuff then?’ he replied and said he’d call after work on Monday (today)… but what I’d sorted out for him wasn’t convenient anymore cos he’d gone on to days at work… and he needed to change it. So I replied and said are you gonna sort it then… he replied… no you sort it for me and he’d be training with the next door neighbour this week and he’d call and pick the stuff up then. Well, I’d lost it at this point, so I text him back ‘I’ll believe it when I see it, I’ll text ya when I’ve sorted it then… Cos I’m good enough to sort this shit out for you, but not good enough for you to want to see me hey?’ to which he replied ‘Leave it then, just cancel the original one and I’ll sort it, can’t be doing with the moaning’. How very dare he?

 My friends have been saying ‘get rid’ for weeks, if not months now. I was talking to our Sue about it Friday night (granted, we were both slightly inebriated) but she told me I need to get over him and move on now. Then last night, Abigail’s dad rung me (he thinks we’re friends again now cos I spoke to him last week) and although I don’t normally like to talk to him, I was rather glad to speak to him last night…. Not speak to him personally necessarily, I was just glad to talk to anybody… he just happened to be the only person I could speak to at that time… who’d want to listen to me anyway. So he said what’s up with ya, ya sound upset… so I blurted the whole story out. And I have to say he was very nice about it all and even he said, I need to get rid… And to be honest I’d been thinking the same thing all weekend, before the texts. So like I said, here I am again… And once again I’m saying, its done, I’m done with this. I’ve sorted the shit out for him this morning and text him to tell him, he’s not text back so much as thank you. I will have to see him at some point before next Thursday now to give him this stuff… but once this is all sorted, I’m deleting his number. That way, I can’t keep making a twat of myself by either texting him and practically begging him to come and see me, or losing it with him. I hope that this time I’ll be strong enough to ignore him, should he get in touch with me, or turn up… But only time will tell on that one. But one things for sure, I know I can’t carry on like this anymore, its not doing me any good, and while ever I’m still hung up on him, I’m not gonna meet anyone else am I? 

Wish me luck… I think I’m going to need it!