Cryptic Post… Ranting

I know I said I wouldn’t be posting again til after the holidays but something happened, something I’m not going to go into graphic detail about cos frankly no one wants to know the ins and outs and I don’t want anyone to know the ins and outs but I still feel the need to document it. I did some something last night, something that I haven’t done in such a long time.. like about 4 years, and I always swore that I would never do again, purely because of how I always feel afterwards, not even that really, but how other people see me because of this, because I’ve learned, particularly in this last year, that you can’t trust anybody, and no matter what, the truth will out, that’s about the only thing I can count on these days. Now, this wasn’t by any means a conscious, planned decision, however, I did plan an aspect of last night and it sort of spiralled from there. I’m not saying I was forced into anything but had I had time to think about what I was doing, or had I not consumed the amount of alcohol I had consumed (Hmm, maybe I should not drink so much, or at all in fact, it never leads to anything good) then I really doubt that what happened would have happened at all. Anyway, I digress, it happened and there’s not a damn thing I can do about it now, and honestly, I don’t know that I would change it. I’m not proud of my behaviour, as always, but who am I hurting? If I enjoyed myself what the hell difference does it make to the small minded people, who seem to always see fit to sit in judgement of me and my behaviour? I mean really, what makes these people so self righteous that they think that they can sit in judgement of me? When in fact, if they looked closer to home, they’d see there lives are less than perfect! At least I’m honest about my life… I know it’s not exactly turned out as I planned it to, and in fact this discussion took place last night, when I think about where I, and the people that I know were about 7 years ago who could’ve predicted that things would turn out as they have? Buts that’s life isn’t it? Always waiting to throw yet another curve ball my way! But I make no qualms about who I am and I always try to keep my private life just that, private, but as I said inevitably someone betrays you’re confidence and the world finds out what you’ve done and that… Gasp! I’m not exactly the innocent virgin that apparently I should be! Just because I’ve been single for a long time now, does that mean I have to sit at home in my pj’s with hot chocolate every night just waiting for a perfectly handsome Prince Charming to knock on my door and sweep me off my feet? I mean, what are the odds of something like that actually happening? And on that note I think I better stop, cos I’ve already said too much and those of you that know me and are reading this will probably now have some idea of what I’ve done. But, I will just say this, if I don’t feel totally ashamed and mortified today because, as far as I know, no one knows yet, why then should I be made to feel ashamed when the truth comes out? Catch ya Later… I’m going to pack XxXxX

Holidays Are Coming

I’m still here! I know it’s been a while but I’ve been recuperating! I ended up going back to stay with Mum, because, after I tried to be clever and do too much too quickly I got quite ill again. But, we’re home now, and, touching all wood available, I think I’m doing ok! I’m still a little tired and sore but much better all in all! They do say that every cloud has a silver lining and it seems this is no exception… While I’ve been ill, I’ve lost a stone!!! How cool ay? I now fit into clothes that I haven’t fit into for months!! And, it’s not long now til I go to Leeds for the night with Sue and everyone… So I’ve already picked an outfit out! I can’t wait… I want to wear my pink halter-type top and some dark jeans, now I do have some dark jeans that fit me properly now, but I’m thinking I might treat myself to a new pair to celebrate the weight loss! And, that also means, that I have more than achieved the target I set for the holiday! Granted, it may seem I’ve cheated a little, but I had to endure the pain of the operation so you could say I’d earned the weight loss really!!

We go to Majorca tomorrow night… Yay!!! 1 and a half sleeps as Abigail keeps telling (we’re only counting Saturday night as half a sleep cos we’ve got to be gone for 3 am!)!! I’m so excited… I’ve got just about everything we need (I think) I’ve just got to pack it all tomorrow! 

I was counting on a quiet day today, maybe get my feet up on the sofa a while or something, but guess what? The schools closed!! There have been so many kids and staff that have gone off with the sickness bug (Abigail had it last week, it’s horrible trust me, Abigail looked like something from the exorcist, the sick was just pumping out of her) that there aren’t enough teachers to cover all the kids and they have got to disinfect all the classrooms so no more kids get it!! So I now have Abigail & Max at my house! Cos Sue had dropped Max off and gone to work as normal, completely unaware, but fortunately the school hung on to him until I got there to pick him up! But we had a panicky few moments when I couldn’t find him, but alls well that ends well I suppose! They came home and had Hot Chocolate with Squirty Cream on!! Can’t be bad ay? 

I have a funny little story to share with you all… I was absolutely rolling with laughing when Carly told me. Apparently, Drew (my now brother-in-law) works with a polish dude, who they call ‘Mad Mick’… He has taken a dislike to Drew, who is apparently to untidy for ‘Mad Mick’… So during one shift ‘Mad Mick’ had had enough and started shouting at Drew in his broken English. He got the broom out of the cupboard and shouted to Drew “You know what this is?” and Drew started sort of nodding and then Polish ‘Mad Mick’ shouts “It not for Harry Potter F**king fly”.. How funny? Drew said he just laughed in his face, then ‘Mad Mick’ shouts “You understand me no? I speak property good English”!! Like I said, I was rolloing on the floor laughing when Carly told me!! 

I think we’re going down to Sue’s for the traditional Friday night Chinese cos we haven’t had one for ages! I was sort of hoping we’d be going to the club so I could see my ‘Crush’ but I think a quiet night in will be better for me! I did see my ‘crush’ for the first time in a while yesterday, he didn’t see me though, and you’ll never believe what I did… I turned round and doubled back to drive past him again. To give him another chance to see me… he didn’t though! How sad ay? If that doesn’t prove that I have a mega teenage crush I don’t know what will! 

In Liverpool news, they started the season relatively well… But then, Rafa started tinkering as usual and the last two league games they only drew! But, they are still undefeated this season. Then on Tuesday they faced Reading in the Carling Cup and won 4 – 2 with Torres getting his first hat trick!! Yay! Hopfully they’re back on track now and can putting the goals away! 

Anyway folks… I’m off on my hols now, so I’ll catch you all when we’re back!!  

Catch ya Later XxXxX                                                                                                      

Appendicits

It’s been a while hasn’t it? So, it turned out, I did have appendicitis! I hung on til Wednesday morning in agony and went to the GP. He said he thought it was appendicitis and admitted me straight to hospital. I rung Mum, who came with and off I went to the Surgical Admissions Unit (SAU) and waited to be seen. By this time I was in some proper pain, they tried to give me some morphine, but cos of an incident when I was admitted to hospital when I was 16 and the overdosed me, the tiny bit that they gave me sent me instantly high! So I had to make do with tramadol and paracetamol which barely touched it! The Dr’s and Consultant shared the same opinion as my GP and decided I needed to have my appendix out, there and then (they did decide in the mean time that I coulds have some pethidine, so I pretty much didn’t care then what they did!!)! So at about 6.30 pm last Wednesday I went down to theatre, I have had surgery before and it’s never really bothered me but I was petrified this time! The Dr warned me that things might be in a mess inside, and if that was a case they’d have to remove some of my bowel and resection it (probably why I was scared ay?)! But, I was lucky (apparently) cos the appendix was on the verge of bursting but they hadn’t, so they took them out just in time! Thank God my GP sent me up when he did! But since then I’ve been recovering. I had to spend 2 days in hospital and then I went and stayed with Mum for a while cos I couldn’t manage to do anything on my own. But now, after a week or so, I think I’m on the mend and we’re back home! I still don’t feel mint, but better than I did. I don’t think work are overly impressed, but, it’s not like I planned it! If I had a choice, I think I’d rather be at work! 

So that’s where I’ve been folks…  I wanna say a BIG thank you, to my brilliant mum who has looked after me & Abigail fantastically in this last week… I’d be lost without her!! I’ll catch up with ya’ll soon… I promise… See Ya XxXxX

Great Weekend/Crazy Waltzer/Poorly Sick

Well, we’re back!! This weekend has been AMAZING!!! We left at just after 4 pm and got to Butlins at about 6.15 ish, we went straight for tea then got ready and went out. It was a great night out and the drinks and everything weren’t anywhere as near as expensive as I’d thought they were going to be, don’t get me wrong, they weren’t exactly cheap, but not over the top extortionate! Saturday morning we all went swimming! Abigail had a fabulous time there, the swimming pool is HUGE, with all sorts of various pools and slides! After that me and Abigail spent the afternoon wandering around, she had her face painted, we had pancakes and milkshakes and just generally had a fabulous afternoon together! We went out with everyone again Saturday night and had another great night. Although, we did go to one of the bars cos there was Queen tribute band on, but it was shit!! Still, the company was good though! Sunday, we went into Skegness for most of the day. Abigail went on the donkeys and then we went on the fair! Abigail had a go on some of the littler rides, like the merry go round and the tea cups which she thoroughly enjoyed!! I (foolishly) decided to go on the Waltzer with Andy, Harry & Max. Andy and Harry went in one car and me and Max went in another. It started off ok and me and Max were laughing our heads off, but then it got soooooo fast I couldn’t lift my head up, I mean seriously, I have never been on a waltzer as fast, Andy said the same! My neck is still killing and I couldn’t move when it stopped!! Mental!! It was still a laugh though! Then, me, Sue, Harry & Max went on the Log Flume! Sue & Max went in one ‘log’ and me & Harry went in another, this went a little better than the Waltzer although, we did get piss wet through! All in all it was a fab day and the weather was Gorgeous, I got sun burned walking around!! We went out again Sunday and had another great night then came back yesterday, got back about 1.30 pm! It was a laugh from start to finish, Andy has been so funny all weekend, and he is literally the funniest person I know!! Here are some pics of Abigail from this weekend….

  <— Abigail on the donkey 

  <– On the merry go round 

 <— On the teacups   

 <—With her face painted 

<—With her Ice Cream (She’s not upset, the sun was in her eyes!) 

I went back to work today, but had to leave at around 11 am cos I was throwing up all morning… Nice huh? I don’t know what it is but I have been in some serious pain this afternoon with my stomach, it’s not too bad now cos the pain killers have kicked in a little. I’ve got an appointment with the GP in the morning, but if the pain comes back like before I think I might have to go to A & E. Sue’s just been round and she thinks it might be my appendix! Scary! I used to suffer with rumbling appendix when I was younger but nothing like the amount of pain I’ve been in this afternoon! I’ll see how I feel later… 

In crush news, it’s still there! I’ve been thinking about him all weekend, but I haven’t seen him for a week or so. Hopefully, if I’m better by Friday, we’ll be going to the club and we’ll see if I can’t get something started!! Lol!!! I

n diet news, I’m doing really well, if I do say so myself!! I’ve lost Half a stone in total which puts me, more than on target for what I want to loose before the holiday! I’ll just have to stick at it. Sue & Me have decided to start Disco Dancing Classes cos that’s a fab form of exercise isn’t it! Here’s hoping anyway!! 

Oh and England remembered that they could actually play football and score goals and won Israel 3 – 0… we may just qualify yet!!! Or have I spoke to soon… guess we’ll see with the match against Russia tomorrow!!

That’s it from me, I’m going cos I think the pain killers might be wearing off and I feel very quesy again…. Oh no!! Catch ya Later XxXxX

PS I’m updating the dream page today too….

Butlins!!

Hey Guys… Just a quickie this morning! We’re off to Butlins this afternoon!!! Yay!!! I’m soooo excited, I think it’s gonna be a mega weekend!! So I’ll update ya’ll when we return… Oh and I’ve updated the dream page again… Mwah XxXxx

It’s Just A Little Crush

So, now you’re all up to date with the events of the last week or so I can ramble on about other crap again! By the time I’d filled ya in on everything I’d been doing last week I had no time to fill ya in on what’s been going on in my brain!!

 I have a crush on someone, in a big way! I mean a full blown teenage crush! I haven’t experienced anything like this since I was about 14 and started seeing Abigail’s dad! You know the sort where when you go past somewhere they’re likely to be, like work place or house (I pass both of these on my way to and from work) and you get excited, just in case you see him!?! That’s what I’ve got… I’ll explain a bit further although I don’t want to say who he is just yet, nobody who reads this will know him anyway so there’s really no point!! When I went to the club with Sue last Friday he was in and we were sort of chatting a bit, but in a big group type thing! Nothing out of the ordinary, expect I remember looking at him and thinking ‘He is HOT’ but only in a passing thought. Anyway, then Bank Holiday Monday Sue & Andy went over to the club for the afternoon and he was there, and apparently, Sue said, he was ‘snooping’ about me. Asked if I was seeing anyone and he also asked her if she thought it was worth him sort of trying it on with me. Sue said to him, something along the lines of ‘why would ya treat her right’ and he said he’d treat me like a princess! So that set me off thinking! And its sort of escalated from there…  I’ve seen him a couple of times since then and he’s definitely been looking and smiling at me more than you would normally. Anyway, Sue must’ve said something to Andy cos he text me Friday night while we were at mum’s and he was at the club and said ‘told *** ya like him’ but he won’t tell me what he said! Now though, I don’t know what I’m gonna do about it, we won’t be going to the club this weekend cos it’s Butlins (woo hoo) so it’ll probably be next Friday before I see him properly to talk to, but, then I know I’m gonna get dead shy, and Andy is absolutely BOUND to cause a scene and embarrass me! Hmmm, guess I’ll just have to watch this space!! 

It’s Abigail’s first day back at school today! And she’s going to be a big girl in Year 1 now. It’s still the same teacher but instead of being one of the littlest, she’ll be one of the biggest now! She looked soooo grown up with all her uniform on this morning! (I’m going to post a picture later but I’m blogging at work now – naughty ay?) I can’t wait to get home so she can tell me all about it! 

Works being going well this week, I’ve had a variety of different tasks to do so the days have been passing relatively quickly. People are talking to me more so that helps too! I’m not making any firm decisions as yet, I’m keeping my options open as they say! 

Chelle came over for a cuppa last night. It was lovely to see her, I can’t believe how big she’s getting! She’s really blooming now (or bolloming as she put it! Lol!) And even though it sounds a while to her due date in the middle of November, when you think about it, it’s not that long at all! Baby Hough will be here before you know it! 

I took Abigail to Asda Monday night to get the last bits and bobs she needed to start back to school, and guess who we saw outside? Only Daddy and his girlfriend!! He completely blanked us though, he was coming out as we were going in and he looked at me, then at Abigail and blanked us! I could kick myself for not saying anything now, but I didn’t want to cause a scene and confuse Abigail!! Tosser, although I had to laugh yesterday cos apparently he’s crashed his car (again) and wrote it off (again)!! He’s had about 6 new cars since passing his test 5 years ago and has crashed all of them and wrote them off, plus one of his Dad’s!! See, and some people don’t believe in Karma!!! Ha Ha Ha!! 

That’s about it for now guys… A relatively short post for you in comparison to the last few ay? Ooh, just so ya know, I’ve updated the dream page for the first time in a while too!! 

Catch ya later X xXxX

Oh no!! Another long one….

Right, I think it’s gonna be another long one! I know it’s been almost a week since I’ve blogged anything, but it’s been hectic!

 Abigail’s birthday went really, really well! She was the Princess for the day and absolutely loved it! She told me when she went to bed, that she’d had a very ‘special day’ so I was very pleased!  She had lots of lovely cards, presents and clothes and a bit of money, so she was extremely happy! And now, she’s a ‘big 5’ she’s being all grown up!  

I collected our portrait pictures on Tuesday, they turned out really well. Everyone is well chuffed with them! It was Definitely worth the money. We’re just waiting for Drew’s dad to get back from holiday so he can copy some of them for us! We’re gonna frame some for Dad for his birthday next week, the ones of me, Carly & Leanne and the grandchildren! 

Thursday morning we got up fairly early and went and collected the dresses from the shop. This went without a hitch fortunately! Carly & me tried ours on and were relieved to discover they still fit! Then the Nail lady came to my house. We had a fabulous girly afternoon, there was me, Carly, Mum, Leanne, Abigail then Drews Mum & sister. The nail lady did a fabulous job, I had the acry-gel nail extensions and absolutely love them (they’re still on now!) and a bargain at £20! Carly’s other bridesmaid, Rachel (who is the girlfriend of Drew’s brother Matt, who was Best Man, are ya keeping up? Confusing isn’t it?) Then came to mine to try her dress on. She stepped in as bridesmaid when Carly sacked the Maid of Honour so hadn’t tried her dress on since it was altered slightly to fit her. She tried it on, and it fit perfectly, but the hook and eye part that holds the zip up was missing so Carly and me had to make an emergency trip back to the dress shop to get that fixed! I decided to pick Abigail a McDonalds up from the drive thru on Ollerton roundabout, take my advice… Don’t go to that one! I was sat in the parking space waiting for a cheeseburger Happy Meal for 15 minutes!! And then, I had to go in and jolly them up, they’d completely forgot about us, and I got really angry! Got myself a free McFlurry in the process though! They couldn’t apologise enough! 

When we got home, we decided that seeing as we fitted nicely in our dresses we’d treat ourselves to a Chinese! So Carly, Drew, Alex and Mum came up to mine! We had a good night then too and the food was gorgeous! Probably tasted even better due to the fact that I’d not had time to eat since my breakfast at 8.30 am and we didn’t sit down to eat the Chinese until 9.00 pm! 

The nail lady came back Friday to finish everyone off and do Carly’s trial for her make-up! I had to pop to Chesterfield with Drew around lunchtime cos he was picking Aunty Josie up from the Train Station at 1.30 pm and Drew wasn’t really sure what she looked like or anything! I went back home and the Nail Lady had finished everyone’s nails (including Abigail’s who had hers painted light pink, like a big girl!) and started Carly’s make-up. She made a fabulous job of that too and I would highly recommend her for the nails and make-up so if anyone wants her name/number let me know!  

Friday night we all went to Mum’s for a girly night with it being the night before the wedding! That went really well, although Sue & me did manage to get in trouble for winding Leanne up (which we weren’t)! Andy popped down after texting us about 100 times but decided against it when he saw how many women there were in the room! Sue & me weren’t late leaving cos I’d got Abigail with me but all in all it was a fab night!  

Then it was the Big Day!! I barely slept all night, it was like Christmas or something! Got up dead early cos we had to go to the Lakeside to trim the room up before going to the hairdressers!! Carly & me were late to the hairdressers cos the room took longer than anticipated but we got there and sorted eventually! Hollie & me were the last ones to leave the hairdressers and by the time we got home it was about 12 pm. The cars were picking us up at 2.30 so we needed to get a crack on really! Mum made us all bacon sandwiches and the make-up/nail lady was there all morning sorting everyone out! Again she was fantastic, made an ace job of the bridesmaids! We all starting getting ready and it was mayhem as you can imagine when there were 9 women, my dad and 3 little girls to get ready! When the limo pulled up the little bridesmaids didn’t even have their dresses on! We sorted it out though and all trooped off to church! Carly looked amazing when she arrived and everyone commented how nice she looked! The ceremony went really well and the only slight hitch was the vicar disappeared off with Carly & Drew and the bridesmaids/best man forgot to go with them to sign the register! I think it was my job to remember but we didn’t rehearse that bit!! Anyway, we weren’t far behind them! 

After the ceremony we all had loads of pictures took outside and the weather held out for us! We then all went to the Lakeside for the reception. We got everyone in and sat down and they decided to do the speeches first as Matt (Best Man) was uber nervous. Dad went first and his speech was ace! He’d obviously put loads of thought into it, and everyone loved it! Drew delivered his speech, which was basically just to thank the bridesmaids, ushers etc. Then it was Matt’s turn, he really struggled bless him, he’s soooo shy its unreal but he managed it and everyone was dead proud of him. He got a bit upset cos he thought he’d let everyone down, so we had a bit of a cuddle and I told him he did really well! 

The only thing that really went wrong was the catering, there was nowhere near enough food for the daytime meal and then the nighttime buffet came and there was next to nothing again! So, in a bizarre turn of events, me, Sue, Aunty Heather and Emma ended up going to Tesco with £70 to get some food! Baring in mind, I had my bridesmaid dress on, you can imagine the reaction we gotrunning around the supermarket! Tesco were excellent with us, and couldn’t help us enough, so big thanks to them for saving the day… Special mention to the General Manager, Nick and the checkout guys Tony & Laura who opened a checkout especially for us! I think I’m going to write a letter to the local paper thanking them and naming & shaming the crap caterer! 

Apart from that, everything went swimmingly… there was a slight family bust up between 2 of our Cousins (one from dad’s side, one from mum’s) which then caused a marital dispute between my mum’s brother and his wife (although I’d guess there were BIG underlying problems there, judging by the kids reactions to the fight! I think, with the amount of alcohol consumed and the lack of food at lunch we were lucky that there were no punches thrown!

My Uncle Frank did collapse absolutely wasted at about 10 pm and had to be carried home and my mum ended up falling over and badly injuring her shoulder (she spent all afternoon in A & E yesterday!) But, apart from them slight hitches all in all it was a fantastic day, and more importantly Carly and Drew were happy so that’s all that matters! I will post some pictures as soon as I get them!

I think that brings us almost up to date… Just got a few other bits to mention… The Football!! How ace was that result?!?! Liverpool won 6 – 0 against Derby, now I know Derby are a shit side anyway, but still 6 – 0 is pretty amazing. Also worth a mention, Chelsea lost 2 – 0 at Aston Villa!! Ha Ha! Baring in mind Liverpool beat them 2 – 1 when they met them!! Liverpool are now top of the table… where they belong, and where they’re going to stay!!

I weighed myself this morning and I’ve lost another 2lb, bringing the grand total to 4lb, which is still on target for the 12lb I want to lose before the holiday (4 weeks)! Yay me!! 

I’m back at work today, joy of joys! But, I’m excited, cos Friday we go to Butlins!!! Woo hoo!!

 I promise to keep things up to date a bit more this week, so hopefully there won’t be anymore HUGE blogs for a while!! If you’ve got this far, thanks for sticking with me!! Catch ya Later XxXxX