It’s My Birthday!!

It’s my birthday!! Happy Birthday to me! I’m 23 today.. I feel a bit funny about turning 23, I just think it’s an in between sort of age! Anyway, I’ve had a lovely day… Got loads of cards and some lovely gifts… I got a ‘Mum’ bracelet from Abigail, some gorgeous earrings from Sue & Andy, A Next voucher from Carly, some money from work and some chocolates from Leanne… So all in all I’ve been a lucky girl again! 

I’m really enjoying my week off! Didn’t really do a lot yesterday had a chilling day in with Abigail. Then Ally came round last night, it was great to catch up with her. Hopefully we’ll be going over to Ally’s sometime soon, Abigail’s really desperate to see Colin and play with him! Lol!! 

Today, I went down to Mum’s this morning and had some cake and opened my cards and that, that were there. Then went to see Chelle. It was lovely to see her and catch up too. I can’t believe how much Oliver has grown! He’s GORGEOUS, and such a happy little chappy too! He was giggling and laughing with Abigail. It was lovely to see her too! I really am going to make more of an effort to keep in better touch with my closest friends. I know it’s not always either cos we’re all really busy with new babies, work, kids etc! But I didn’t realise how much I’d missed them all until I saw them and caught up and had a proper chat! With that in mind, I’m going to see Emma & Lee tomorrow and going to Jodie’s on Thursday! 

I’ve also got an Opticians appointment tomorrow, I have to have yearly checks now which I’ve never had to have before cos of how much my eyes had deteriorated, so I think they might have got worse again when I go tomorrow. We shall see though ay? 

I’ve then got my Psychologist appointment on Thursday. I think I said briefly in my last post about my dream that I’ve been having a tough time going recently. When I went a fortnight ago, I explained that I was feeling very defensive about going, and that while part of me did (and still does) want to resolve my ‘issues’ I felt like I was putting walls and barriers up, stopping myself from doing it. So we had a LONG discussion about that, which resulted in me having a very emotional breakdown but I couldn’t really understand why I was that upset, and then last week I was really reluctant to go, and I really struggled with getting across what I was trying to say. So I’m quite apprehensive about going on Thursday!  

Can’t believe Liverpool got knocked out of the FA cup by Barnsley at the weekend… not quite sure what that’s all about… the world’s on its arse if Liverpool can’t beat fecking Barnsley!! But, in better Liverpool news… They won tonight… 2 – 0 against Inter Milan who haven’t lost a game since last September! It’s only the first leg, but still it’s good to go to them with a lead and we haven’t conceded any away goals!! So that’s a bit better form..!! 

Anyway… that’s enough for now! Getting better at updating though ain’t I??

Swimming Dreams

Just a quickie… I had a dream last night that I was swimming, in this pool that was surrounded by other pools that were full of dirt and that, but the pool I was swimming in wasn’t. Anyway, I decided to look up swimming on the dream dictionary and look what it said..:-  

Swimming

To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.

To dream that you are swimming underwater, suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your emotional difficulties.

Weird seeing has I had a particularly tough session with my psychologist lady. Last week I explained to her that I was feeling defensive about going and talking to her, similar to how I feel if I try and get into a relationship. So we talked about why I get defensive and I had a rather emotional moment at the end of that session. Then this week I found it really difficult to try and get across what I was saying… It seems like the dream reflects that! 

I’m all wireless… but am I a crap friend??

I’m not getting any better at this updating malarky am I?? 

Firstly, I want to apologise to all my friends… I’ve been a proper crap friend just lately! I’ve barely seen anyone for ages! I don’t know what’s been up with me, I’ve just been sort of stuck in a rut and I really didn’t feel like leaving the house, or making plans or anything. This isn’t an insult to them, I’m not saying I didn’t want to spend time with them, cos I love my proper friends to bits, I just didn’t want to spend time with ANYONE! I wouldn’t have been very good company anyway! So, like I said…. Sorry, I’ve been crap! But I promise I’m gonna be better now! I’m gonna try to catch up with everyone in this next week or so, which I’m really looking forward too! I know they’ve all had quite a lot on just lately as well! 

My cars all fixed and sorted now…! I didn’t have to pay the excess either cos the other woman has accepted full liability! I did end up with a hire car for nearly a fortnight! When they rung me to arrange it, they said I’d be getting something small, like my car.. they lied! They sent me a Grande Punto. I HATED it… It felt like driving a bus compared to my Micra! When they delivered it, it had next to no petrol in it, of course, so I went to try and fill it up and guess what… I couldn’t get in the fuel cap!! Grrr… I was well ragged off, stood in Tesco petrol station 10 minutes and I couldn’t get in! It was like summat out the matrix! Which, just fuelled my hatred of the car even further! Anyway, I just about got used to it in the end, but I was still glad to see it go on Saturday! That’s when I collected my car… I was soooo pleased to see it!!! Its bizarre really! But it was all nice and shiny outside and they’ve valeted it inside too!! I was well impressed!! 

That’s about the only bit of good news I’ve had though! Lol!

Mum’s still in pot! She’s back at clinic next week so we’ll find out then if she does need an op on it and what happens from there! I hope she gets sorted out soon, cos she’s doing my head in a bit to be honest! I know that sounds nasty, but she gets into these moods where she feels sorry for herself at the best of times… so you can imagine how she is now! She keeps moaning about Leanne, but she’s only been hat home one night a week (leanne I mean) cos she’s been at my Dad’s or the respite place every other night… so how can she moan about that…? Its that sort of thing that annoys me!  Works going really well. I’m getting on fantastically with the two women I sit with. We’ve become really close so we tell each other our problems and help each other out. Its nice, cos it makes work that bit more enjoyable! We have got a new person starting soon to do the same job as me, and he is a proper tithead (he already works in our office) so I don’t think that’s gonna be much fun! But we’ll see! 

I’ve been having some problems with my internet connection over the past couple of days… so I decided that now was as good a time as any to sort my wireless connection out!! I’ve had a right nightmare with it! I don’t know if I was just being female or what, but I couldn’t do it! So I rung someone more techie minded (thanks again for your help with that Nick… You’re a star!!) and after a 30 minute phone call finally got it up and running!! I’m thrilled with it!! It’s fantastic to be able to get online anywhere in the house!! Its fab!! 

Oooh… just a quick update on my brother, who has been discharged, but didn’t bother to let us know, so don’t know where he is now! And Drew’s Uncle, who got beat up. After it was touch and go for a while, he’s on the mend now, the Dr’s are astounded with his progress, he’s awake, breathing on his own and talking and he’s recognised everyone! So that’s another bit of good news!!

Anyway… enough rattling for now… See ya XxXxX