Swimming Dreams

Just a quickie… I had a dream last night that I was swimming, in this pool that was surrounded by other pools that were full of dirt and that, but the pool I was swimming in wasn’t. Anyway, I decided to look up swimming on the dream dictionary and look what it said..:-  

Swimming

To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.

To dream that you are swimming underwater, suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your emotional difficulties.

Weird seeing has I had a particularly tough session with my psychologist lady. Last week I explained to her that I was feeling defensive about going and talking to her, similar to how I feel if I try and get into a relationship. So we talked about why I get defensive and I had a rather emotional moment at the end of that session. Then this week I found it really difficult to try and get across what I was saying… It seems like the dream reflects that! 

I’ve been very naughty….

… and do you know what? I don’t even feel guilty about it!! Ha! I’m not going into the details but it’s what I was on about that started last Saturday. Well after no further developments I spoke to the Psychologist about it. I explained the situation to her with all the history and said I know I shouldn’t want to do what I did and she explained that there is no ‘should’ or ‘shouldn’t’ in this sort of thing and if I want to do it then I will. Talking to her about it, didn’t really straighten it out in my mind or explain why I do it but I have stopped beating myself up about it and making myself feel worse cos of what other people might or might not think. What will be, will be and all that. Then last night ‘further developments’ occurred! I was soooo pleased with what happened and today I’ve been floating on my own little ray of sunshine, so why should what anyone thinks stop me from feeling like that? Although it’s all very well saying this when no one knows but ask me if I still feel the same when they do! Which, is why I’m savouring this feeling now!

I had another good session with the Psychologist this week and after spending a few weeks giving her some background information about me and my situation I think I might be ready to start talking properly about the reason that I’m there. I’m more than a little apprehensive though, I don’t know where to start with it or how to explain how I felt. But I suppose it’s her job to help me with that. I’m also rather scared of how I’ll feel when I’ve said it out loud, cos it’ll be the first time in a long long time I’ve actually spoke about the details of what happened, and if I do that, it’s like admitting it happened, where for 10 years I’ve pretended it didn’t. 

I’m so excited… We’re going out Friday night!!! Abigail’s stopping at my mum’s and I plan to get absolutely slaughtered!! Lol!  It’s always a good night the Friday before xmas and I’m really looking forward to it… I’ve got a gorgeous top that I want to wear, but I don’t know if I’m brave enough cos it is rather revealing… in a classy sort of way though! It does look good on mind you! It’s Alex’s birthday party at 10 am Saturday morning so I’ll be looking quite rosy for that I expect….!  I went to town straight from work this afternoon and I’m pleased to say I’ve finished my xmas shopping all but one present! Just got to wrap all the lot up now, which will be no small task!! I do feel better now I’ve got it all done though!  

Got a busy week planned, Ally’s coming over tonight, then tomorrow I’m going to Chelle’s straight from work, which I’m sooooo looking forward to. I’m also hoping to catch up with Jodie sometime this week!! 

I think that’ll do for now, I’ll keep you informed on my naughtiness! Lol!! 

PS… I had a dream last night and I saw two owls in it, so I looked up Owl on the Dream Dictionary and this is what it says… I don’t particularly like the sound of this one! 

Owl

To see an owl in your dream, symbolizes wisdom, insight and virtue. The owl is also synonymous with death and darkness. To hear the hoot of an owl, denotes disappointments and forewarns that death creeps closely in the wake of joy and health. To see a dead owl, signifies a narrow escape from desperate illness and death. Death in this sense may also represent a symbolic death, as in an important transition in life.  

Finally got my tattoo done!!

I’ve had a tattoo!! I’ve wanted one doing for a bit now, but my sister barred me from having it done before the wedding with me being a bridesmaid (I can’t remember if I said at the time or not, and I can’t be arsed to check! Lol!). Saturday afternoon I popped in for a quick cuppa with Chelle and drove past the tattoo shop. So on a whim I rang them when I got in and said did I need an appointment or could they fit me in and they told me to go down in half an hour! So I did! I’ve had 3 little stars on my left wrist/forearm area, but unfortunately my Bluetooth connection is down and I can’t upload a pic, but as soon as I’ve sorted it I’ll post a pic! 

Nothing to report with Twathoop. It’s still eating away at me, but I’ve not really seen him. I did pass him briefly on Monday and we said a general hello type thing and he was next door tonight but I’ve not seen him. I think I’m not gonna feel any better or get over him unless I know for definite where I stand, otherwise it’s going to continue to eat away at me! Grrr… which basically means I’ve got a few options.. 1) Pluck up the courage to speak to him about it… 2) take the less brave action of writing him a letter spilling my feelings out and leaving my number thus, leaving it up to him to get in touch or 3) do neither of these things and let it eat away at me forever til I end up in the loony bin! Any advice welcome! Oooh, ooh… just thought of an option 4) I have got to change one of the brake lights on my car, maybe I should wait and do it when he’s next door and play the ‘damsel in distress’ and make out I can’t do it so he comes and helps me and take it from there? What do we think?

 Last night I had a great night. I went to the Talbot with Chelle and Ally, we were joined later by Matt and Jamie and we had a right laugh. The footie was on too, and the atmosphere was good. I’d not been to the Talbot before, we had some tea there as well and it was lovely and I’m hoping to get invited again soon! (hint, hint guys!! Lol!!) 

What about the football last night then… What was it about a fortnight ago when we played Besiktas and lost 2 – 1… played them again last night… Only went and won 8 – 0!! Benyoun got a hat-trick, Peter Crouch scored two, Babel scored two and Gerrard scored one! It got a little embarrassing for the other team in the end to be honest but hey! It’s all good for Liverpool… sends a good message out to the rest of Europe! They now have the record for winning by the biggest margin in the Champions League! Not a bad record to have really!! 

     <— Babel’s amazing ‘back heel’ goal!! (Matt told me that that’s what it was called last night when I said it was a back kick! Not far off was I?) 

Abigail’s ill again. We were back at the Dr’s Monday night and she’s got another dose of antibiotics… BUT, I think I may have convinced them to refer her to the hospital… Yes, shocking I know! Cos, now she can barely hear anything most of the time and the Dr seems to think it’s cos her tonsils and adenoids are permanently swollen and blocking her ears! So, I’ve got to take her back to the GP in a fortnight so he can review her while she’s not infected (although, chances are, in two weeks, she’ll be re-infected seeing as it’s only 3 weeks since her last dose!!) and if everythings still swollen he will refer her!!! It’s progress though isn’t it! 

Oh, just before I go… this is how the fates and cosmos conspire against me just lately… the bloke I have a secret crush on (not the crush from before a different one) decided to speak to me for the first time properly today… when I have the BIGGEST, red zit on my chin!! Great!! 

Oh and check out the dream page cos I’ve been having some well dodgy dreams just lately… Including several involving sex in various ways, which, according to the definition it quite literally means I want some… well… I didn’t need a Dream Dictionary to tell me that, I assure ya!! I’m all too aware of that little fact! 

Catch ya later XxXxX 

It’s Back – The Dreaded Tonsillitis

You know it’s winter when…  Abigail’s back on antibiotics! Yes, that’s right, tonsillitis again only this time, it’s accompanied by a Chest Infection! Oh goody, goody! I guess that’s the start of my fortnightly trips to the Dr’s… Cos do you think they’ll refer her yet… Oh No!! I’ll tell ya now though, they’ll be so sick of me asking for her to be referred if we have another winter like I had with her last year, that they’ll refer her just to shut me up! So now, she’s off school (again) and I’ve got Parents Evening coming up, so I’m going to have to explain why she’s missed so much school and she if I can get something in place so that if she does have to have loads of time off, she doesn’t miss too much!

I decided to have the appointment with the Clinical Psychologist after much soul searching. I figure its got to be worth going to at least 1 session or I’ll never know if it’ll work for me or not will I? So I’ve rung her back and left a message and she’s going to contact me with an appointment soon! 

Last night, for the first time since we got back from holiday I actually just chilled on the sofa ALL evening! It was AMAZING (small pleasures ay?). I got in from work (after taking Abigail to the Dr’s of course) and made tea, did a bit of ironing, hovered up, had a bath all before 7.30pm then I sat and watched TV til 10.30 pm! I’ve got loads to catch up on!! 

Tonight won’t be the same though, But at least I’ll be going out somewhere I want to be instead of the hospital or Dr’s or summat! Chelle’s coming over to mine at 6.30pm so we can have a cuppa and a chat before we go to Ally’s at 7.30! It shouldn’t be too late a night though, I don’t think Chelle will want to be out late and I don’t with Abigail being ill! It’ll be great to see both Ally and Chelle though, it’s been far too long since we all had a good girly natter!! 

I can’t believe the England match kicks off at 4 pm tomorrow! I’m still gonna be at work!! I’m hoping one of the lads in the office will have a radio or summat!! Grrr…!! 

I’ve just remembered a dream I had last night… I can’t be arsed to look it up yet, but there was a horse stuck in my pond!! Weird huh??

 Anyway, that’s about all from me! See ya… 

Oooh… I’ve just remembered, I saw my ‘Crush’ yesterday! I’ve not thought about him for a while, needless to say I am now though!! Lol!!

Great Weekend/Crazy Waltzer/Poorly Sick

Well, we’re back!! This weekend has been AMAZING!!! We left at just after 4 pm and got to Butlins at about 6.15 ish, we went straight for tea then got ready and went out. It was a great night out and the drinks and everything weren’t anywhere as near as expensive as I’d thought they were going to be, don’t get me wrong, they weren’t exactly cheap, but not over the top extortionate! Saturday morning we all went swimming! Abigail had a fabulous time there, the swimming pool is HUGE, with all sorts of various pools and slides! After that me and Abigail spent the afternoon wandering around, she had her face painted, we had pancakes and milkshakes and just generally had a fabulous afternoon together! We went out with everyone again Saturday night and had another great night. Although, we did go to one of the bars cos there was Queen tribute band on, but it was shit!! Still, the company was good though! Sunday, we went into Skegness for most of the day. Abigail went on the donkeys and then we went on the fair! Abigail had a go on some of the littler rides, like the merry go round and the tea cups which she thoroughly enjoyed!! I (foolishly) decided to go on the Waltzer with Andy, Harry & Max. Andy and Harry went in one car and me and Max went in another. It started off ok and me and Max were laughing our heads off, but then it got soooooo fast I couldn’t lift my head up, I mean seriously, I have never been on a waltzer as fast, Andy said the same! My neck is still killing and I couldn’t move when it stopped!! Mental!! It was still a laugh though! Then, me, Sue, Harry & Max went on the Log Flume! Sue & Max went in one ‘log’ and me & Harry went in another, this went a little better than the Waltzer although, we did get piss wet through! All in all it was a fab day and the weather was Gorgeous, I got sun burned walking around!! We went out again Sunday and had another great night then came back yesterday, got back about 1.30 pm! It was a laugh from start to finish, Andy has been so funny all weekend, and he is literally the funniest person I know!! Here are some pics of Abigail from this weekend….

  <— Abigail on the donkey 

  <– On the merry go round 

 <— On the teacups   

 <—With her face painted 

<—With her Ice Cream (She’s not upset, the sun was in her eyes!) 

I went back to work today, but had to leave at around 11 am cos I was throwing up all morning… Nice huh? I don’t know what it is but I have been in some serious pain this afternoon with my stomach, it’s not too bad now cos the pain killers have kicked in a little. I’ve got an appointment with the GP in the morning, but if the pain comes back like before I think I might have to go to A & E. Sue’s just been round and she thinks it might be my appendix! Scary! I used to suffer with rumbling appendix when I was younger but nothing like the amount of pain I’ve been in this afternoon! I’ll see how I feel later… 

In crush news, it’s still there! I’ve been thinking about him all weekend, but I haven’t seen him for a week or so. Hopefully, if I’m better by Friday, we’ll be going to the club and we’ll see if I can’t get something started!! Lol!!! I

n diet news, I’m doing really well, if I do say so myself!! I’ve lost Half a stone in total which puts me, more than on target for what I want to loose before the holiday! I’ll just have to stick at it. Sue & Me have decided to start Disco Dancing Classes cos that’s a fab form of exercise isn’t it! Here’s hoping anyway!! 

Oh and England remembered that they could actually play football and score goals and won Israel 3 – 0… we may just qualify yet!!! Or have I spoke to soon… guess we’ll see with the match against Russia tomorrow!!

That’s it from me, I’m going cos I think the pain killers might be wearing off and I feel very quesy again…. Oh no!! Catch ya Later XxXxX

PS I’m updating the dream page today too….

Butlins!!

Hey Guys… Just a quickie this morning! We’re off to Butlins this afternoon!!! Yay!!! I’m soooo excited, I think it’s gonna be a mega weekend!! So I’ll update ya’ll when we return… Oh and I’ve updated the dream page again… Mwah XxXxx

It’s Just A Little Crush

So, now you’re all up to date with the events of the last week or so I can ramble on about other crap again! By the time I’d filled ya in on everything I’d been doing last week I had no time to fill ya in on what’s been going on in my brain!!

 I have a crush on someone, in a big way! I mean a full blown teenage crush! I haven’t experienced anything like this since I was about 14 and started seeing Abigail’s dad! You know the sort where when you go past somewhere they’re likely to be, like work place or house (I pass both of these on my way to and from work) and you get excited, just in case you see him!?! That’s what I’ve got… I’ll explain a bit further although I don’t want to say who he is just yet, nobody who reads this will know him anyway so there’s really no point!! When I went to the club with Sue last Friday he was in and we were sort of chatting a bit, but in a big group type thing! Nothing out of the ordinary, expect I remember looking at him and thinking ‘He is HOT’ but only in a passing thought. Anyway, then Bank Holiday Monday Sue & Andy went over to the club for the afternoon and he was there, and apparently, Sue said, he was ‘snooping’ about me. Asked if I was seeing anyone and he also asked her if she thought it was worth him sort of trying it on with me. Sue said to him, something along the lines of ‘why would ya treat her right’ and he said he’d treat me like a princess! So that set me off thinking! And its sort of escalated from there…  I’ve seen him a couple of times since then and he’s definitely been looking and smiling at me more than you would normally. Anyway, Sue must’ve said something to Andy cos he text me Friday night while we were at mum’s and he was at the club and said ‘told *** ya like him’ but he won’t tell me what he said! Now though, I don’t know what I’m gonna do about it, we won’t be going to the club this weekend cos it’s Butlins (woo hoo) so it’ll probably be next Friday before I see him properly to talk to, but, then I know I’m gonna get dead shy, and Andy is absolutely BOUND to cause a scene and embarrass me! Hmmm, guess I’ll just have to watch this space!! 

It’s Abigail’s first day back at school today! And she’s going to be a big girl in Year 1 now. It’s still the same teacher but instead of being one of the littlest, she’ll be one of the biggest now! She looked soooo grown up with all her uniform on this morning! (I’m going to post a picture later but I’m blogging at work now – naughty ay?) I can’t wait to get home so she can tell me all about it! 

Works being going well this week, I’ve had a variety of different tasks to do so the days have been passing relatively quickly. People are talking to me more so that helps too! I’m not making any firm decisions as yet, I’m keeping my options open as they say! 

Chelle came over for a cuppa last night. It was lovely to see her, I can’t believe how big she’s getting! She’s really blooming now (or bolloming as she put it! Lol!) And even though it sounds a while to her due date in the middle of November, when you think about it, it’s not that long at all! Baby Hough will be here before you know it! 

I took Abigail to Asda Monday night to get the last bits and bobs she needed to start back to school, and guess who we saw outside? Only Daddy and his girlfriend!! He completely blanked us though, he was coming out as we were going in and he looked at me, then at Abigail and blanked us! I could kick myself for not saying anything now, but I didn’t want to cause a scene and confuse Abigail!! Tosser, although I had to laugh yesterday cos apparently he’s crashed his car (again) and wrote it off (again)!! He’s had about 6 new cars since passing his test 5 years ago and has crashed all of them and wrote them off, plus one of his Dad’s!! See, and some people don’t believe in Karma!!! Ha Ha Ha!! 

That’s about it for now guys… A relatively short post for you in comparison to the last few ay? Ooh, just so ya know, I’ve updated the dream page for the first time in a while too!! 

Catch ya later X xXxX

Do I need to escape daily life?

Just a quick update… Had another dream that I remembered last night… This one involved Helicopters & Hotels (See Dream page for more detail). According to the definition of Hotel it could mean I want to escape daily life, which seems to be a recurring theme in my dreams just lately. It’s funny cos I don’t think I’m feeling the need to escape, but clearly, sub-consciously I think I do! This Dream interpretation is getting more and more useful! The more I write down and interpret the more I seem to remember.That’s it anyway… Haven’t got anything exciting to add! Catch Ya Later XxXxX

Naughty Kristy

I’ve been very naughty these past few days! I’ve been so bored that I went to Mansfield yesterday… and I drove!! I couldn’t be arsed to catch the bus or owt when it was pissing it down all day! So me & Mum went first thing! I picked up a present for Chelle… I saw a few things that I really liked and I couldn’t decide which one to get, so I got them all!! Lol!! I can’t wait to see her on Tuesday to give them to her! I also picked myself some new pyjama’s up! I was absolutely desperate for some as the elastic had gone in my only other decent pair and the trousers kept falling down! Quite embarrassing! So, I got a GORGEOUS pair from Debenhams (more money than I would normally spend on pj’s but hey!) then went to Primark and got 3 pairs of bottoms and some plain black & white vest tops! Oh and a gorgeous pair of lemon check pj’s from Primark too!! Exciting huh!! Then yesterday afternoon I went to the new big Tesco to do some food shopping as I’ve not been for 3 weeks (I drove there too)! Spent loads cos I needed everything!! I really like the new store too… normally I go to Morrisons and don’t deviate cos I know where everything is and I’m in my ‘comfort zone’ so to speak… but I got on dead well with Tesco… Found everything I wanted!!

Last night we went to Sue’s for the traditional Chinese! Had an excellent night, watched the eviction, which I thought was fab! I can’t wait to see what kicked off when Charley went back in! I think they’ll have been hell on! Can’t believe how much she lied either when she went in… saying everyone loved her and all this… Err, no they didn’t! Still excellent TV!!

Abigail’s gone to Morrisons with Mum this morning for her breakfast!! So I’m making the most of the peace and quiet! I have absolutely nothing planned for the rest of the day… I’m gonna be really bored, I can see it now!  

That’s all from me… Exciting entry huh! Just wanna say Happy Birthday to Nick for tomorrow and hope ya enjoy ya BBQ tonight… lets pray the weather holds out!! I’ve updated the dream page today as well peeps, had a proper strange one last night!!

Catch ya Later!! XxXxX           

Dreams…

Oooh… while I remember… I had another dodgy dream last night… I was on Holiday but it was like a girly Holiday… And my mum was there with Abigail. I went to buy a drink from the bar and realised I only had English Money… Then while I was queuing at the bar I was stung on my stomach by a wasp… I’ve checked out the Dream Dictionary site for the definitions and here they are: 

Holiday 

To dream of holidays, represent a need for a break or time for rest.  You are expressing a wish to escape from your responsibilities. Depending on the activities related to the holiday, the dream may also indicate family issues, personal attitudes or some difficulty. 

Wasps 

To see a wasp in your dream, signifies angry thoughts and feelings. To dream that you are stung by a wasp, symbolizes growing envy and hatred towards you. 

I wonder who hates me?? Oh and I agree I need a rest and a break!! Lol!! 

I’ve decided to add a page of all the dreams I have and their definitions for better recording of them… check it out!

That’s it… See Ya!