Hmm… Relationships are more difficult than they look!!

Hi Guys… It’s been a while again hasn’t it… It’s all this having a life malarkey, I’m too busy to blog! What’s that all about!

 

Life in general is still… wait for it… good! I’m not saying I’ve been persistently happy since I last blogged cos there’s been a couple of ‘blips’ but overall I feel great!

 

Me & Ste (new fella has a name you see) are still seeing each other. We are now officially a ‘couple’ apparently… We had this discussion the other week, cos we’d been seeing each other a month and I think we both felt it was time to sort of define what was happening. Cos we’ve spent so much time together, you can’t really say we’re just casually going out and that. So we both agreed that we were ‘together’ properly, in that we’re not seeing other people (which is great to be clear on after the twathoop saga)! It’s crazy how soon you get used to having someone in your life though, my whole way of thinking has changed really, I’ve now got to consider someone else when I’m making my decisions (obviously I’m used to this with Abigail, but it’s a different thing really). Also, normally I’m a fiercely independent person, and I love having my own space, but he’s been staying at my house over the weekends (when he’s not been working) and it’s really hard to get used to him not being there in the week!! So all in all things are good there… I’m not gonna sit here and say after 6 weeks that we’re in love and never gonna split up and all that, cos that’d just be crazy! But I think things are as good as they can be for this early on! The sheer fact that I’m not bored is a good sign!! As anyone that knows me will appreciate! Lol!!

 

We’ve had a couple of ‘moments’ though, we had our first ‘proper’ argument on Saturday! We’d made plans to spend the day together, but then I remembered that I was supposed to be taking Abigail to my little cousins birthday party 2 – 4 pm. So I said to him why don’t  you go to the Club (cos some of his mates were in watching the football) while I go to the party, then I’ll pick you up and we’ll go out for some tea, so we agreed on that. I rang him when I was leaving the party, he was fine, said he’d be ready. I got to the club and he got in the car, and I could tell he’d had more than a couple of pints straight away, and he’d got arse on cos he’d ‘had’ to come out the club! So we set off in the car, and he’s winding me up more and more with little comments about how he wished he could’ve stayed and all this, til I lost it and just said do ya wanna go back then? So he said yes! I couldn’t believe it, we’d made plans and he was changing them to go to the shocking club! I was driving his car, and I cos I was quite annoyed, I was driving like a crazy lady! So then he starts saying in the car ‘oh I tell ya what I’ll never see my friends again’! I really don’t think I’d said that, in fact I’m fairly sure it was me that suggested he go to the club in the first place! Anyway, he wanted me to drop him off at the club, but I was that angry at this point that as he went to get out the car at the club, I put foot down and parked up at my house so he had to walk (no big hardship as the club is literally a stones throw from my house but still)! And he stomped off to the club! It’s quite funny when I think about it now, but it wasn’t at the time! We did make friends later on, he came round to my house at 7 pm cos we’d got plans for my sister to come round for a takeaway! He was quite drunk though, so we couldn’t really talk about it properly that night, he went to work from my house Sunday Morning, and he rung me when he got there and apologised properly, he said he’s realised that I didn’t actually do anything wrong Saturday afternoon and that it was him that was out of order (which I knew anyway!)! It was only something little though, and I suppose it’s normal for people to argue, I think it’d probably be a bit strange if we didn’t really don’t ya think? 

 

The biggest thing at the minute though is his ex. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned what happened, but they’d been sort of split up since Christmas and she was staying in Liverpool (which is where she’s from), then they were gonna give it another go and she came back up for a bit but he found out that she’d been seeing someone else for about 4 months! The day after I met Ste, she came up to the village, loaded all the furniture from their house into a van and took it to Liverpool (I might just add that it was all Ste’s furniture that he bought and paid for!) Anyway, I think now she’s realised that she’s made a mistake and is now regretting it, cos she’s been sending him messages from her kids (their not his!) pulling on his heart strings, and then she sent him one last week saying can you tell your girlfriend to stop texting me…! I hadn’t text her, she was just making out! She told him I’d told her that me & Ste had been together 4 months.. why would I lie about that?? I didn’t even know him 7 weeks ago!!! Then she text him 10 times last Friday saying that I’d rung her! I haven’t even got her number!!! Fortunately it didn’t cause any trouble, but potentially it could’ve. Then last week she text him saying she still loved him!!! Ace or what? Anyway this has really bothered me over the last week or so, which I think it would any woman, or am I wrong in thinking that? You tell me ladies, if you was in a new relationship, and the fella’s ex was texting him anything up to 10 times a day, saying she still loved him and she was remembering the good times they had, oh and the other classic was when she text him and told him to listen to Leona Lewis new song Footprints in the Sand cos it made her think of them two together…Would that bother you? It’s made me feel quite insecure, and has caused a bit of bad feeling between me and Ste, cos I’ve been quite arsey about little things, cos I’ve got it into my head that she’s gonna get to him, and he’s gonna go back and I’ll be the one left on my own for a change!

 

We have sorted that out now, I spent a lot of time thinking yesterday, and I came to the conclusion, that me being all insecure and slightly crazy is not helping the situation at all! In fact it’s more likely to send him packing! It don’t help that I’m struggling with my other shit at the minute, I’ve not been sleeping and the ‘anniversary’ is coming up in 3 weeks again! And so called friends are getting involved and causing trouble!

So I made a decision to not let my usual insecurities ruin something that could potentially be quite good! And last night when he came round last night, we had an ace night and it was dead relaxed and we had a laugh, and it was how it was last week, before I started letting everything get to me! Plus she’s not text him since the weekend, which has eased my mind a little!

 

Anyway… I’ve waffled on a bit now! Looking forward to the Liverpool v Chelsea match tonight, think it might be a bit of a nail biter though! I really hope we can beat them! We’re going out to watch it cos it’s on Sky, so it should be good, Abigail’s sleeping at mum’s so I get a night off!

 

See ya Soon XxXxX

Happiness

Shockingly, life’s still going fairly well for me! We’re pushing a fortnight now where I’ve been relatively happy!

 

Things still seem to be going well with the new man in my life! He came to my house after work on Friday and I was really excited to see him, how weird is it that I miss him when I don’t see him when we’ve only known each other 3 weeks?

 

We went to the zoo on Saturday and had an absolutely lovely day! Abigail properly LOVED it! She was so excited, she was running backwards and forwards round all the animals like a crazy lady! It was lovely to see her enjoying herself so much! I know I don’t tend to blog about her an awful lot, which is a little weird cos she’s the biggest and best thing in my life! She’s 5 now (going on 50 I think sometimes) and she’s a proper little character. She had me and the new fella marching around the zoo following the map and everything! All in all we had a lovely day, Abigail said her favourite bits were seeing the Giraffes, penguins and Meer cats (she even gave us an impression of a meer cat… so cute!) and because she’s been such a good girl he bought her a teddy giraffe from the gift shop (she’s called it Baby Giraffe) which she thinks is the best thing since sliced bread!

 

Saturday night, Abigail went to bed fairly early cos she was wiped out from running around all day so Jodie and Jez came round and had a drink with us (obviously Jodie didn’t cos she’s pregnant)! It was a right laugh, funny how you can have such a good night just sitting in the house and chatting! Jodie and Jez ended up stopping cos Jez wanted a drink so obviously couldn’t drive home, so the fun continued Sunday morning! Mum had arranged with me to take Abigail to see Bob’s grandkids and then go out for some dinner so we all decided we’d take the opportunity to go out for some dinner too! It was really nice again, and we continued to have a laugh! I’m really enjoying the fact that we’ve got lots of plans just lately and I’m seeing more of Jodie than I have for a while. I don’t know if it’s just the fact that I’ve got this new man in my life, or with it being lighter at nights and the weather (sometimes) being fairly decent, but I feel loads happier and have more energy than I’ve had for ages! Even Sue said she’s noticed a difference in me, she says I look really well and I’ve got a sparkle in my eye!

 

He came round again last night to watch the football, we got some drinks in and Abigail was all ready in her full Liverpool kit! She actually learned last night that a football match has two halves cos I normally send her to bed at half time cos of school, but she’s off this week so I let her stay up! We settled down to watch the match and what a match it was! Went on the full range of emotions, as I always do with Liverpool’s European games! I have to say Arsenal played us off the park for the most of the first half, but I think we started believing again after Sami Hyypia’s astounding header! Then Torres scored another blinder and I thought we were fairly safe at that, but no, in another twist Theo Walcott made an amazing run from one end of the pitch to another and Arsenal equalised, meaning they’d go through on the away goal. Until, Toure brought Babel down at the other end and Stevie G buried the penalty, then just to finish it of Rafa brought Babel on and he made a stunning run to score again. Meaning the score was 4-2 on the night and 5-3 on aggregate. That means we’ve set up yet another Champions League Semi Final with Chelsea for the third time in 4 years!! Not too worried about them like, we won both of the last two!! I’ve been reading the press today and I’m sick of hearing how ‘lucky’ Liverpool were, and how it wasn’t a penalty but the one Arsenal didn’t get last week should have been… blah blah blah, at the end of the day, the penalty was awarded this week, it wasn’t last, and Liverpool won on the night… no amount of moaning and complaining about the ‘injustice’ is going to change that! Keep hearing how ‘lucky’ Liverpool are in Europe… surely their European record for the past 4 years speaks for itself…? Here’s some pictures from another amazing night at Anfield….

 

 <— Babel after scoring 

 

 <— The amazing fans

 

 <—- Torres burying his goal

 

 <—- Sami Hyypia after his goal

 

I’m hoping for more progression with my Psychologist lady tomorrow… Then I’m off work Friday and Monday cos Abigail’s off school so looking forward to spending some time with her! I’m going to move all the furniture round in my bedroom tonight cos I’m in the mood for a good fettle and clean up!

 

See ya soon guys n gals XxXxX

 

It’s My Birthday!!

It’s my birthday!! Happy Birthday to me! I’m 23 today.. I feel a bit funny about turning 23, I just think it’s an in between sort of age! Anyway, I’ve had a lovely day… Got loads of cards and some lovely gifts… I got a ‘Mum’ bracelet from Abigail, some gorgeous earrings from Sue & Andy, A Next voucher from Carly, some money from work and some chocolates from Leanne… So all in all I’ve been a lucky girl again! 

I’m really enjoying my week off! Didn’t really do a lot yesterday had a chilling day in with Abigail. Then Ally came round last night, it was great to catch up with her. Hopefully we’ll be going over to Ally’s sometime soon, Abigail’s really desperate to see Colin and play with him! Lol!! 

Today, I went down to Mum’s this morning and had some cake and opened my cards and that, that were there. Then went to see Chelle. It was lovely to see her and catch up too. I can’t believe how much Oliver has grown! He’s GORGEOUS, and such a happy little chappy too! He was giggling and laughing with Abigail. It was lovely to see her too! I really am going to make more of an effort to keep in better touch with my closest friends. I know it’s not always either cos we’re all really busy with new babies, work, kids etc! But I didn’t realise how much I’d missed them all until I saw them and caught up and had a proper chat! With that in mind, I’m going to see Emma & Lee tomorrow and going to Jodie’s on Thursday! 

I’ve also got an Opticians appointment tomorrow, I have to have yearly checks now which I’ve never had to have before cos of how much my eyes had deteriorated, so I think they might have got worse again when I go tomorrow. We shall see though ay? 

I’ve then got my Psychologist appointment on Thursday. I think I said briefly in my last post about my dream that I’ve been having a tough time going recently. When I went a fortnight ago, I explained that I was feeling very defensive about going, and that while part of me did (and still does) want to resolve my ‘issues’ I felt like I was putting walls and barriers up, stopping myself from doing it. So we had a LONG discussion about that, which resulted in me having a very emotional breakdown but I couldn’t really understand why I was that upset, and then last week I was really reluctant to go, and I really struggled with getting across what I was trying to say. So I’m quite apprehensive about going on Thursday!  

Can’t believe Liverpool got knocked out of the FA cup by Barnsley at the weekend… not quite sure what that’s all about… the world’s on its arse if Liverpool can’t beat fecking Barnsley!! But, in better Liverpool news… They won tonight… 2 – 0 against Inter Milan who haven’t lost a game since last September! It’s only the first leg, but still it’s good to go to them with a lead and we haven’t conceded any away goals!! So that’s a bit better form..!! 

Anyway… that’s enough for now! Getting better at updating though ain’t I??

Just when you think things have got as bad as they can… They get worse!

I know I’ve been crap with the updating again… Naughty me! I’ve had a pretty shit week though to be honest… I bet you’re shocked really aren’t you? 

It all started Saturday, but I’m not going to go into that now. I plan to discuss the events of Saturday with the Psychologist tomorrow, in a feeble attempt to make sense of it in my own mind before I start trying to explain it to anyone, not that anyone will understand anyway, or care! 

Then Monday, I went to work as normal, but Mum rung me, pretty much as soon as I got there and there was hell on at their house between her and Leanne. Basically they’ve not been getting on for a while now and things really came to a head Monday morning. They were screaming at each other and Mum has hit Leanne. So, once again, she rung me to see what she should do so I said, if it’s that bad, ring social services cos they’ve got a social worker anyway. So she did and I ended up coming out of work to be there when the Social worker got there. By the time I got there, the social workers had arrived and one was taking Leanne away in the car and the other was talking to mum. Mum seemed to be in quite a mess, and at one point I thought I was going to have to ring the Dr to give her summat to calm her down, so she’s talking to the Social Worker and fucking Bob comes over sticking his fat oar in. They were proper laying it on thick, now I’m not saying Leanne is a walk in the park but they were making her out to be a psycho that could flip at any time, and even hurt Abigail and Alex, which is just not true! So I was trying to explain the situation from an impartial point of view but no one seemed to be paying attention to what I had to say. The social worker then said they didn’t think it was a good idea for Leanne to stay at home but the emergency respite place they keep had been filled that morning, so basically if we couldn’t find her somewhere within the family to stay she’d go into Foster Care or something, so now, she’s living with me! Oh yes, I’ve been confined to the sofa in my own house. She stayed with me Monday & Tuesday, she’s here tonight and then she’s going to stay at Dad’s tomorrow before going to Yew Trees for the weekend. Then hopefully she’ll be able to go home. But, of course my mum’s been round the family doing the whole ‘woe is me’ story, nobody knows how hard her life is and how hard work Leanne is… well excuse me…. I’ve fucking managed. And not only have a managed with Leanne, I’ve had Abigail too and carried on going to work… all without too much upset… so woe is fucking me!!! Ya know!!! Pff… Makes my fucking arse laugh… At the end of the day I’m 22, I shouldn’t have the responsibility of a 17 year disabled sister, but ya get on with it don’t ya… except if ya my mum, then ya have a paddy and say it’s too hard and ya get a fucking week off. When was the last time I had 1 fucking day off, never mind a week!!! 

So there, rant over, for now anyway! 

Sooo not prepared for xmas, it’s not even funny now! I’ve got about 10 days to get my ass in gear. I’m going late night shopping tomorrow and plan to get my xmas cards and wrapping paper then so I can at least get the cards sent out. Then I plan to go to town first thing Saturday morning and either next Friday or Saturday to finish the xmas shopping… cutting it fine or what? 

Another good result for Liverpool last night… beating Marseille 4 – 0, goals from Gerrard, Torres, Kuyt and Babel securing their place in the last 16 of the Champions League! Now bring on Man U Sunday for the premier league and Chelsea next week in the Carling Cup… 

That’ll do for now, I shall probably update tomorrow when I’ve seen the Psychologist again, I’m feeling good about the counselling tomorrow cos I have several ‘topics’ I want to discuss! 

Catch ya Later XxXxX

Its not as bad now…

You might be pleased to hear that I am feeling slightly better about life in general at the moment. I still wouldn’t say I was jumping for joy with it all but I’m not ready to go and throw myself under a train or summat… well, not just yet anyway!

Works been good this week, I’m really quite busy at the moment and I will get more busy next week cos the other lady that does the same job as me is moving over to the Application Support side of our little department, leaving all the Data Quality stuff for me to do. I know I’ve complained in the past that I’ve been bored ad had nothing to do so I don’t really want to moan now that I’ve got plenty to do, but I’m thinking that it might get a little too much when it’s all GOT to be done ya know? And I don’t know if I can cope with the pressure at the minute, with everything else I’ve got going on!! Hmmm, we’ll see! They’ve advertised for the other Data Quality job so hopefully it won’t be too long til they get someone in post, but having said that whoever gets the job will need training before they can actually take some of the workload! 

I went for my Clinical Psychologist appt again on Thursday. It was very revealing again. I told her that I’ve been feeling really low and hopeless this week and I said sometimes I look at Abigail and wish I was young again and didn’t have to worry about anything anymore ya know? Well she then asked what happened in my life when I was Abigail’s age, and I’ve never considered this before, but that’s when my youngest sister (who’s disabled) was born, and because Leanne was a lot of work as a baby and Dad had to work, I had to look after Carly, which, as the Psychologist pointed out, is a huge responsibility for a 5 year old. This then carried on all through mine and Carly’s childhood. Mum was always so busy with Leanne that she didn’t have any time for us so I stepped up and was always there for Carly. In fact, one of Carly’s first memories is of me teaching her to read and write. When Carly was ill with Shingles, I suppose she was about 9, so I’d be 11/12 and Mum was also ill I stayed off school to look after Carly cos Mum ‘Couldn’t’ and I was telling the psychologist this and she said, ‘who looked after you when you were ill’ and again I’ve never really considered it but nobody did, I looked after myself and coped with things on my own from being so young. The psychologist then said that, that’s why when what happened to me, happened I didn’t tell anyone cos they wouldn’t have had time to look after me anyway. It still happens now as well really… I’m the first one any of them ring when they’ve got a problem and I’m expected to deal with it for them. Just this week, my brother’s been in hospital again so it was me that had to deal with that, Leanne has got herself in trouble and when Mum found out what’s the first thing she did? She rang me at work to see what she should do. But, if I’ve got a problem I feel like I’m not allowed to burden them with it, I have to deal with things on my own. And I know that if I’d have gone to my mum last week when Iwas feeling really low she’d have just told me to pull myself together. Just once I’d like one of them to deal with my problems for me.  

In happier news though… Carly’s Pregnant!!! We’ve known for a while now but I wasn’t allowed to say anything til she’d had her first scan, which was yesterday! She’s 12 weeks gone and is due in June next year!! Exciting ay? I’m gonna be an Aunty again! We went to Drew’s brother’s 21^st birthday party last night. It was a proper posh party and I got to wear a dead posh dress and go out looking like a laydeeeee!!! It’s possibly that after half a bottle of wine and several Smirnoff Ices that I didn’t behave like a lady though! It was a good night though… that is until Drew took me and Abigail home and his Uncle got a lift with us and he tried to grope me in the back seat of the car… this would be fine except he’s married, balding, more than a little overweight and nearly 50!! Wow, I’m a lucky girl really aren’t I??  

Good result for the Liverpool boys Wednesday night ay? 4 – 1 against Porto. Torres got two, Crouch got one and Gerrard got a penalty! We just need to win against Marseille in a fortnight and we’ll be through!! 

See y’all soon!!  

Finally got my tattoo done!!

I’ve had a tattoo!! I’ve wanted one doing for a bit now, but my sister barred me from having it done before the wedding with me being a bridesmaid (I can’t remember if I said at the time or not, and I can’t be arsed to check! Lol!). Saturday afternoon I popped in for a quick cuppa with Chelle and drove past the tattoo shop. So on a whim I rang them when I got in and said did I need an appointment or could they fit me in and they told me to go down in half an hour! So I did! I’ve had 3 little stars on my left wrist/forearm area, but unfortunately my Bluetooth connection is down and I can’t upload a pic, but as soon as I’ve sorted it I’ll post a pic! 

Nothing to report with Twathoop. It’s still eating away at me, but I’ve not really seen him. I did pass him briefly on Monday and we said a general hello type thing and he was next door tonight but I’ve not seen him. I think I’m not gonna feel any better or get over him unless I know for definite where I stand, otherwise it’s going to continue to eat away at me! Grrr… which basically means I’ve got a few options.. 1) Pluck up the courage to speak to him about it… 2) take the less brave action of writing him a letter spilling my feelings out and leaving my number thus, leaving it up to him to get in touch or 3) do neither of these things and let it eat away at me forever til I end up in the loony bin! Any advice welcome! Oooh, ooh… just thought of an option 4) I have got to change one of the brake lights on my car, maybe I should wait and do it when he’s next door and play the ‘damsel in distress’ and make out I can’t do it so he comes and helps me and take it from there? What do we think?

 Last night I had a great night. I went to the Talbot with Chelle and Ally, we were joined later by Matt and Jamie and we had a right laugh. The footie was on too, and the atmosphere was good. I’d not been to the Talbot before, we had some tea there as well and it was lovely and I’m hoping to get invited again soon! (hint, hint guys!! Lol!!) 

What about the football last night then… What was it about a fortnight ago when we played Besiktas and lost 2 – 1… played them again last night… Only went and won 8 – 0!! Benyoun got a hat-trick, Peter Crouch scored two, Babel scored two and Gerrard scored one! It got a little embarrassing for the other team in the end to be honest but hey! It’s all good for Liverpool… sends a good message out to the rest of Europe! They now have the record for winning by the biggest margin in the Champions League! Not a bad record to have really!! 

     <— Babel’s amazing ‘back heel’ goal!! (Matt told me that that’s what it was called last night when I said it was a back kick! Not far off was I?) 

Abigail’s ill again. We were back at the Dr’s Monday night and she’s got another dose of antibiotics… BUT, I think I may have convinced them to refer her to the hospital… Yes, shocking I know! Cos, now she can barely hear anything most of the time and the Dr seems to think it’s cos her tonsils and adenoids are permanently swollen and blocking her ears! So, I’ve got to take her back to the GP in a fortnight so he can review her while she’s not infected (although, chances are, in two weeks, she’ll be re-infected seeing as it’s only 3 weeks since her last dose!!) and if everythings still swollen he will refer her!!! It’s progress though isn’t it! 

Oh, just before I go… this is how the fates and cosmos conspire against me just lately… the bloke I have a secret crush on (not the crush from before a different one) decided to speak to me for the first time properly today… when I have the BIGGEST, red zit on my chin!! Great!! 

Oh and check out the dream page cos I’ve been having some well dodgy dreams just lately… Including several involving sex in various ways, which, according to the definition it quite literally means I want some… well… I didn’t need a Dream Dictionary to tell me that, I assure ya!! I’m all too aware of that little fact! 

Catch ya later XxXxX 

Old Friends/Old Enemies??

It’s been a while again hasn’t it? Not too much to report to be honest. Tuesday night I went to see Ally with Chelle and we had a lovely catch up! Ally’s house is lovely, they’ve made it a proper home! And we’ve all promised that we’ll make it a regular thing cos we left it far too long last time! So with that in mind, I think me & Ally are going over to Chelle’s one night this week, so we can see Baby Hough’s room!!  

I’ve had two days off work and done absolutely nothing Lol (I’ve made up for it this morning cos I’ve got up and blitzed the house!)! I love lazy days though!! Thursday night Emma & Lee came over with their kids and we had a lovely night of chats and cups of tea! Time kinda got away from us though and it was 10.30 pm before they went. None of us were too worried though cos I was off work and so were Emma & Lee and the kids were off school so its not like any of us had anything to get up for! Abigail didn’t surface out of bed til 10 am the following morning, most unusual for her! But all in all it was a good night, I always have a laugh with Emma & Lee, we seem to all have a similar sense of humour, I’m really glad that we see more of each other now, it’s nice for the kids to all play together and I like spending time in the company of actual people of an evening!! 

Well, how shit are Liverpool at the minute?? We LOST, that’s right lost, in the Champions League, to, wait for it Besiktas, what? You’ve never heard of them? No, nor has anyone else!! They are the shittest team in the world… and we managed to lose 2 – 1 to them!! We now have to win all 3 of our last 3 games to qualify! At the rate we’re going I can’t see that happening!! Liverpool without European Football is like ant without dec… just not as good!! Then, tomorrow, we face Arsenal in the Premier League, bearing in mind that arsenal won their Champions League game 7 – 0 or summat, we’ll probably concede 9!! Grr… Rafa wants to buck his ideas up or I think he might be finding his P45 in the post… I wouldn’t normally criticise the man cos obviously he knows more than me, but he does keep tinkering with the team, and it’s clearly not working!! While I’m talking about football, I must just tell ya about Chelle’s Pregnant/Blonde moment at Ally’s house.. We were on about the footie and she said oooh, Man U are playing today aren’t they, and someone (I can’t remember who) said who they playing against, so Chelle says ‘Yeovil Chicken’, so me and Ally look at her a bit weirdly and say no, I don’t think they are… she says they are, they’re playing Yeovil Chicken, so we have a look and they’re actually playing Dynamo Kiev… She says yeah, that’s what she meant, chicken kiev!! I was in hysterics! I’m actually laughing now just thinking about it… I think Pregnancy has turned her brains to mush!!! 

I have to say, I’m loving Facebook (even if they have blocked us from using it at work!) I’m a bit of a facebook virgin, but it’s ace! I found an old friend on there that I went to Primary School with.. we used to ‘go out with each other’ when we were like 10!! How cute!! So we’ve been messaging each other… it’s so cool to get in touch with someone like that, it’s weird cos I was only thinking about him earlier this week then I stumbled on his profile through another ‘friends’!!  

In another bizarre turn of events, I saw twathoop yesterday… Now there’s a name we’ve not mentioned for a while! He came to the neighbours obviously but I’ve literally not seen him at all since all the shit kicked off, not even coming and going from next door. It’s odd cos, last weekend, when I was rather drunk I was talking to the neighbour, and I’m fairly sure his name came up and I’m not totally sure what I said, but I think I might have told him, how deeply I felt for twathoop before all the shit kicked off. So I’m now wondering if it’s just a coincidence that he reappear after I’ve spilled my guts? Anyway, he looked at me (through my living room window, I think Chelle’s right, I d need a blind or summat up there!) and we had eye contact for a minute, but that was it, but apparently that was enough to send me into a panic attack! I properly couldn’t breathe!! And then I threw up, now that’s not good is it? Oh I don’t know… It wouldn’t be my life unless there was some shit kicking off would it? Maybe I was stupid to think that I’d NEVER see him again, but I would have liked it like that, cos now I’ve started thinking about him again! 

I better leave it at that, I’ve rambled on a bit ant I?? Oh, I will just say to people that think I’m ignoring them… I’m not! I’m just not sure what you expect me to say, am I supposed to stop and chat to you as if nothing happened?  See Ya XxXxX

I’m baaaack!!!!

Hi again all… So, I’m back from holiday! Got back about 3 pm Sunday afternoon. We’ve had a lovely time. Abigail thought the plane was AMAZING!! She was the only one excited to be going back cos it meant that she could go on the plane again! She’s thoroughly enjoyed herself all week and has had everyone in stitches with her comical behaviour! I took a few pics on the mobile of her splashing in the pool and everything else she’s got up to this past week! It’s a good job I’d lost that stone in weight though before we went, cos I’ve put 4 lb on while we’ve been away! I’m starting afresh now I’m back at work though and hopefully keep off the rest of the weight I lost and lose some more!

 

       

 

These are the only ones I’ve got at work I’ll probably post some more later! Here she is in the pool, ready for a night out, one night when we went out for a drink and some ice cream and the last one she was fast asleep in bed on the morning we were coming home and I had to wake her up at 6 am! I just thought she looked soooo cute!

 However, things since we got back have not been so good. My youngest sister was a bit ‘off it’ when we were travelling back on Sunday but nothing too drastic ya know? But then when we got home she went downhill dramatically. She could barely breathe, she was really groggy and out of it. Monday morning, Mum phoned the Dr’s and got her an appointment for that afternoon, but in the meantime her condition kept getting worse. So, Mum decided to take her up to A & E to get her checked out. She’s now been admitted to the hospital as they’ve found out she’s got pneumonia!! She’s only 17! So yesterday was a complete nightmare, it got so bad at one point the Dr’s were asking us if we wanted her resuscitated if the worse came to the worse! My mum nearly collapsed when they said that! It was really scary sat there watching struggling to breathe and her not being able to acknowledge we were there! My mum has rung me this morning and said that my sister does seem to be doing a lot better! Hopefully she’s responding to the antibiotics and is now on the mend! So, I’ve come to work (I’ve got to show willing haven’t I really seeing as I’ve been off for 3 weeks!) and Mum’s keeping me informed! At the end of the day, if she does take really bad again I’m in the hospital and Mum will let me know so I’m literally 2 minutes away! 

On the work note, how glad am I to be back? Erm, not at all! There’s still nothing at all to do so looks like I’ve got an exciting day in store! I am glad to be back in the routine of coming to work and everything, it’d just be nice to have something to do when I get here! 

Just a quick note on my last entry, I’m not gonna dwell on it, but, so far, there doesn’t seem to be any ‘fall out’! No ones said that they know anything… Hmmm, I think I’d be slightly delusional to believe it’ll stay like that but here’s hoping ay? 

I’m off to Leeds on Saturday (All being well with my sister of course)! I’m really looking for to it, I’m going with our Sue and a load of the girls for a days partying basically! I plan to get absolutely rat arsed drunk cos we’re staying overnight in a hotel and Abigail’s staying at mum’s! I’ve ordered two new tops to pick from and some new jeans!

   <—– Which one do ya like best? 

Err, don’t get me started on the shite performances Liverpool have been churning out in the last week or so! Losing 1 – 0 to Marseille, at Anfield! Can’t get over how bad they performed that night, they’ve got to do some serious work to qualify for the later stages of the Champions League now! Then drawing 2 – 2 to Spurs at Home on Sunday!! Pants!! 

I’ve been pondering things in this last week, probably due to the amount of free time I’ve had on my hands! I’ve been thinking about how I’ve acted towards certain people in the past few months and I’m properly ashamed of how I’ve behaved. I was cold and at times not at all friendly and looking back I can’t believe how I was. I know it’s not an excuse, but I have had a lot (I seem to have had a lot on for over a year now!), and I may have been hasty in some of the decisions I’ve made and I regret that now, I don’t think I gave it a chance, but, as is ever my luck, it seems I’ve realised too late and there’s nothing I can do about it now! The situation has changed and people move on (invariably, to other people). Maybe I’ll learn my lesson, and recognise a good thing when it’s in front of me from now on! 

Anyway, that’s enough for now. See ya Soon XxXxX 

Holidays Are Coming

I’m still here! I know it’s been a while but I’ve been recuperating! I ended up going back to stay with Mum, because, after I tried to be clever and do too much too quickly I got quite ill again. But, we’re home now, and, touching all wood available, I think I’m doing ok! I’m still a little tired and sore but much better all in all! They do say that every cloud has a silver lining and it seems this is no exception… While I’ve been ill, I’ve lost a stone!!! How cool ay? I now fit into clothes that I haven’t fit into for months!! And, it’s not long now til I go to Leeds for the night with Sue and everyone… So I’ve already picked an outfit out! I can’t wait… I want to wear my pink halter-type top and some dark jeans, now I do have some dark jeans that fit me properly now, but I’m thinking I might treat myself to a new pair to celebrate the weight loss! And, that also means, that I have more than achieved the target I set for the holiday! Granted, it may seem I’ve cheated a little, but I had to endure the pain of the operation so you could say I’d earned the weight loss really!!

We go to Majorca tomorrow night… Yay!!! 1 and a half sleeps as Abigail keeps telling (we’re only counting Saturday night as half a sleep cos we’ve got to be gone for 3 am!)!! I’m so excited… I’ve got just about everything we need (I think) I’ve just got to pack it all tomorrow! 

I was counting on a quiet day today, maybe get my feet up on the sofa a while or something, but guess what? The schools closed!! There have been so many kids and staff that have gone off with the sickness bug (Abigail had it last week, it’s horrible trust me, Abigail looked like something from the exorcist, the sick was just pumping out of her) that there aren’t enough teachers to cover all the kids and they have got to disinfect all the classrooms so no more kids get it!! So I now have Abigail & Max at my house! Cos Sue had dropped Max off and gone to work as normal, completely unaware, but fortunately the school hung on to him until I got there to pick him up! But we had a panicky few moments when I couldn’t find him, but alls well that ends well I suppose! They came home and had Hot Chocolate with Squirty Cream on!! Can’t be bad ay? 

I have a funny little story to share with you all… I was absolutely rolling with laughing when Carly told me. Apparently, Drew (my now brother-in-law) works with a polish dude, who they call ‘Mad Mick’… He has taken a dislike to Drew, who is apparently to untidy for ‘Mad Mick’… So during one shift ‘Mad Mick’ had had enough and started shouting at Drew in his broken English. He got the broom out of the cupboard and shouted to Drew “You know what this is?” and Drew started sort of nodding and then Polish ‘Mad Mick’ shouts “It not for Harry Potter F**king fly”.. How funny? Drew said he just laughed in his face, then ‘Mad Mick’ shouts “You understand me no? I speak property good English”!! Like I said, I was rolloing on the floor laughing when Carly told me!! 

I think we’re going down to Sue’s for the traditional Friday night Chinese cos we haven’t had one for ages! I was sort of hoping we’d be going to the club so I could see my ‘Crush’ but I think a quiet night in will be better for me! I did see my ‘crush’ for the first time in a while yesterday, he didn’t see me though, and you’ll never believe what I did… I turned round and doubled back to drive past him again. To give him another chance to see me… he didn’t though! How sad ay? If that doesn’t prove that I have a mega teenage crush I don’t know what will! 

In Liverpool news, they started the season relatively well… But then, Rafa started tinkering as usual and the last two league games they only drew! But, they are still undefeated this season. Then on Tuesday they faced Reading in the Carling Cup and won 4 – 2 with Torres getting his first hat trick!! Yay! Hopfully they’re back on track now and can putting the goals away! 

Anyway folks… I’m off on my hols now, so I’ll catch you all when we’re back!!  

Catch ya Later XxXxX                                                                                                      

Oh no!! Another long one….

Right, I think it’s gonna be another long one! I know it’s been almost a week since I’ve blogged anything, but it’s been hectic!

 Abigail’s birthday went really, really well! She was the Princess for the day and absolutely loved it! She told me when she went to bed, that she’d had a very ‘special day’ so I was very pleased!  She had lots of lovely cards, presents and clothes and a bit of money, so she was extremely happy! And now, she’s a ‘big 5’ she’s being all grown up!  

I collected our portrait pictures on Tuesday, they turned out really well. Everyone is well chuffed with them! It was Definitely worth the money. We’re just waiting for Drew’s dad to get back from holiday so he can copy some of them for us! We’re gonna frame some for Dad for his birthday next week, the ones of me, Carly & Leanne and the grandchildren! 

Thursday morning we got up fairly early and went and collected the dresses from the shop. This went without a hitch fortunately! Carly & me tried ours on and were relieved to discover they still fit! Then the Nail lady came to my house. We had a fabulous girly afternoon, there was me, Carly, Mum, Leanne, Abigail then Drews Mum & sister. The nail lady did a fabulous job, I had the acry-gel nail extensions and absolutely love them (they’re still on now!) and a bargain at £20! Carly’s other bridesmaid, Rachel (who is the girlfriend of Drew’s brother Matt, who was Best Man, are ya keeping up? Confusing isn’t it?) Then came to mine to try her dress on. She stepped in as bridesmaid when Carly sacked the Maid of Honour so hadn’t tried her dress on since it was altered slightly to fit her. She tried it on, and it fit perfectly, but the hook and eye part that holds the zip up was missing so Carly and me had to make an emergency trip back to the dress shop to get that fixed! I decided to pick Abigail a McDonalds up from the drive thru on Ollerton roundabout, take my advice… Don’t go to that one! I was sat in the parking space waiting for a cheeseburger Happy Meal for 15 minutes!! And then, I had to go in and jolly them up, they’d completely forgot about us, and I got really angry! Got myself a free McFlurry in the process though! They couldn’t apologise enough! 

When we got home, we decided that seeing as we fitted nicely in our dresses we’d treat ourselves to a Chinese! So Carly, Drew, Alex and Mum came up to mine! We had a good night then too and the food was gorgeous! Probably tasted even better due to the fact that I’d not had time to eat since my breakfast at 8.30 am and we didn’t sit down to eat the Chinese until 9.00 pm! 

The nail lady came back Friday to finish everyone off and do Carly’s trial for her make-up! I had to pop to Chesterfield with Drew around lunchtime cos he was picking Aunty Josie up from the Train Station at 1.30 pm and Drew wasn’t really sure what she looked like or anything! I went back home and the Nail Lady had finished everyone’s nails (including Abigail’s who had hers painted light pink, like a big girl!) and started Carly’s make-up. She made a fabulous job of that too and I would highly recommend her for the nails and make-up so if anyone wants her name/number let me know!  

Friday night we all went to Mum’s for a girly night with it being the night before the wedding! That went really well, although Sue & me did manage to get in trouble for winding Leanne up (which we weren’t)! Andy popped down after texting us about 100 times but decided against it when he saw how many women there were in the room! Sue & me weren’t late leaving cos I’d got Abigail with me but all in all it was a fab night!  

Then it was the Big Day!! I barely slept all night, it was like Christmas or something! Got up dead early cos we had to go to the Lakeside to trim the room up before going to the hairdressers!! Carly & me were late to the hairdressers cos the room took longer than anticipated but we got there and sorted eventually! Hollie & me were the last ones to leave the hairdressers and by the time we got home it was about 12 pm. The cars were picking us up at 2.30 so we needed to get a crack on really! Mum made us all bacon sandwiches and the make-up/nail lady was there all morning sorting everyone out! Again she was fantastic, made an ace job of the bridesmaids! We all starting getting ready and it was mayhem as you can imagine when there were 9 women, my dad and 3 little girls to get ready! When the limo pulled up the little bridesmaids didn’t even have their dresses on! We sorted it out though and all trooped off to church! Carly looked amazing when she arrived and everyone commented how nice she looked! The ceremony went really well and the only slight hitch was the vicar disappeared off with Carly & Drew and the bridesmaids/best man forgot to go with them to sign the register! I think it was my job to remember but we didn’t rehearse that bit!! Anyway, we weren’t far behind them! 

After the ceremony we all had loads of pictures took outside and the weather held out for us! We then all went to the Lakeside for the reception. We got everyone in and sat down and they decided to do the speeches first as Matt (Best Man) was uber nervous. Dad went first and his speech was ace! He’d obviously put loads of thought into it, and everyone loved it! Drew delivered his speech, which was basically just to thank the bridesmaids, ushers etc. Then it was Matt’s turn, he really struggled bless him, he’s soooo shy its unreal but he managed it and everyone was dead proud of him. He got a bit upset cos he thought he’d let everyone down, so we had a bit of a cuddle and I told him he did really well! 

The only thing that really went wrong was the catering, there was nowhere near enough food for the daytime meal and then the nighttime buffet came and there was next to nothing again! So, in a bizarre turn of events, me, Sue, Aunty Heather and Emma ended up going to Tesco with £70 to get some food! Baring in mind, I had my bridesmaid dress on, you can imagine the reaction we gotrunning around the supermarket! Tesco were excellent with us, and couldn’t help us enough, so big thanks to them for saving the day… Special mention to the General Manager, Nick and the checkout guys Tony & Laura who opened a checkout especially for us! I think I’m going to write a letter to the local paper thanking them and naming & shaming the crap caterer! 

Apart from that, everything went swimmingly… there was a slight family bust up between 2 of our Cousins (one from dad’s side, one from mum’s) which then caused a marital dispute between my mum’s brother and his wife (although I’d guess there were BIG underlying problems there, judging by the kids reactions to the fight! I think, with the amount of alcohol consumed and the lack of food at lunch we were lucky that there were no punches thrown!

My Uncle Frank did collapse absolutely wasted at about 10 pm and had to be carried home and my mum ended up falling over and badly injuring her shoulder (she spent all afternoon in A & E yesterday!) But, apart from them slight hitches all in all it was a fantastic day, and more importantly Carly and Drew were happy so that’s all that matters! I will post some pictures as soon as I get them!

I think that brings us almost up to date… Just got a few other bits to mention… The Football!! How ace was that result?!?! Liverpool won 6 – 0 against Derby, now I know Derby are a shit side anyway, but still 6 – 0 is pretty amazing. Also worth a mention, Chelsea lost 2 – 0 at Aston Villa!! Ha Ha! Baring in mind Liverpool beat them 2 – 1 when they met them!! Liverpool are now top of the table… where they belong, and where they’re going to stay!!

I weighed myself this morning and I’ve lost another 2lb, bringing the grand total to 4lb, which is still on target for the 12lb I want to lose before the holiday (4 weeks)! Yay me!! 

I’m back at work today, joy of joys! But, I’m excited, cos Friday we go to Butlins!!! Woo hoo!!

 I promise to keep things up to date a bit more this week, so hopefully there won’t be anymore HUGE blogs for a while!! If you’ve got this far, thanks for sticking with me!! Catch ya Later XxXxX