29 weeks and 3 days pregnant – oh and a fire!

I know, I know, so much at being better at keeping the blog up to date! That really hasn’t panned out well at all has it? We’ve been really busy though, with work and trying to organise for baby’s impending arrival!

 

So, I’m now 29 weeks and 3 days pregnant. I’ve got quite a sizeable bump now I think, bigger than I was when I was this stage and carrying Abigail, although, they do say you tend to show more with your second and subsequent children. Things haven’t been all smooth running (of course) I ended up back in hospital a few weeks ago, and had to spend a few days in because the Dr’s thought I was going into labour. Fortunately everything settled down, and on the plus side, they did scan me again so we got to have another look at him! He’s really grown, it was when I was 26 weeks at that point, and they calculated his weight from the scan and he was 2 lb 7! How tiny is that? But it’s a good average weight apparently and they were really happy with his progress! But, since then, things haven’t been too bad, I’ve been very tired and quite achy but that’s to be expected. I had my Glucose Tolerance Test last week and thankfully I’ve not got pregnancy diabetes this time. So I think my consultant was right when he said the reason my blood sugars were high when I was having Abigail was due to the fact that they were giving me steroids to boost her lungs, because of the risk of her arriving early. However, I saw my midwife last week, she took some routine bloods and I’m rather anaemic now (which would explain some of the tiredness anyway). I’ve got to go for another blood test on Wednesday and I’m now taking 3 iron tablets a day! I can live with that though, if I had a choice between the anaemia and the diabetes I think I’d chose the anaemia to be honest!

 

We’ve actually started doing the nursery now too, I think both me & Ste realised that we hadn’t got as much time as we thought (with Christmas and everything coming up too) so we’re cracking on as much as we can now. It’s difficult trying to fit things in between me being at work and Ste’s shifts. But we’ve done the under coat of paint in the nursery and the other coat will be done by the end of this week. The new carpet is coming next Thursday and we went up to Babies r us the other week and bought all the curtains, light fittings, rug, bedding etc so as soon as the carpet is down we’ll get all that done. Then we just need to order the cot, which we’re doing at the end of the month. So, we are sort of getting somewhere now!

 

I’ve only got 3 weeks left at work now too, which is really great because it’s really tiring me out! Lol! I don’t know what I would have done if I was still working full time! I actually finish on 25^th November because I’ve had quite a bit of leave to take, so as well as finishing in 3 weeks, I’m also only doing 2 days a week for the remaining weeks! Lol!

 

Just want to say a huge Congratulations to my friend Jodie and her hubby on the birth of their daughter at the end of October – Baby Brooke May, she was only 5 lb 7 – how tiny is that! Seeing her and watching Jodie with her has made me want to meet my little man even more!

 

I think that’s enough about pregnancy and baby for now, I know I’ve rambled on a bit, but it’s such a big part of our lives it’s hard not to talk about it. Having said that, I’ve not really got much else to say! Lol! It was Halloween last week, which Abigail loved, I took her trick or treating with Ste’s sister, she dressed up as a Princess (she didn’t want to be anything too scary!) and we took them around friends and family’s house, they did quite well, got about £8 cash and LOADS of sweeties! Oh, guess what… our oven set on fire a fortnight ago… and I mean literally on fire! We had to have the fire brigade out and everything! Very scary! Apparently it just over heated but there were flames and the lot! Me and Abigail were upstairs, I’d just got out of the bath and Abigail was just getting in, so neither of us had many clothes on and I shouted to Ste is something burning (bearing in mind we’d got a pizza in the oven, but the oven had only been on 10 minutes and it wasn’t on very high or anything) and Ste checked and there were flames in the oven! Me and Abigail made a quick escape to Sue’s (where Abigail had to borrow some of Max’s pj’s cos she’d only got her dressing gown on) and we rung the fire brigade. Andy went up to help Ste and fortunately, between them they managed to get it under control after turning the gas and electric off. But still quite scary! So that was a bit of excitement for the whole street when there were 2 fire engines on the street. Abigail was quite excited too, she kept saying Andy and Ste were superheroes! Bless… it’s a good job she didn’t realise how bad it actually was, cos I think she’d had been scared every time we turned the oven on! Luckily, other than the obvious damage to the oven, there was nothing else affected in the kitchen, which I was really surprised about after how much smoke there was! So we’ve got a new oven and everything is back to normal – touch wood!

 

I’ll leave it at that for now, I’ll hopefully do another post from home soon and upload some pictures, but I’m changing my internet supplier at the minute and just waiting for that to be done. But as soon as it is, I’ll be back – Famous last words ay? XxXxX

We’re having a boy!

Well hello again… Yes, contrary to how it may seem, I do still blog… Just rather occasionally! Lol!

 

What’s been happening since I last blogged then? I don’t know to be honest, it was too long ago! So I’ll just update you on what seems important for now!

 

We had my 20 week scan last week… And… We’re having a baby boy!!!!! I’m chuffed to bits, it’s nice cos now I’ll have ‘one of each’ so to speak. Don’t get me wrong, of course I would have been thrilled to have another daughter too. Anyway, everything was fine on the scan, baby is growing as he should be, which is fantastic, he had his hands over his face at one point, and when the sonographer was measuring his spine he was wiggling his bum, too cute! And the placenta is definitely where it should be, so it’s looking good for me not having to spend months in hospital and hopefully I should be able to deliver naturally, which I really, really want to do. I should find that out for definite in 2 weeks though, when I’m back at hospital to see my consultant! Had a couple of little set backs though, I was quite poorly last week and ended up being admitted to the hospital twice. The first time they couldn’t find anything, and put the pain I was in down to ‘growing pains’ which I think is just what they tell you when they don’t know what’s causing it, I was a bit annoyed at this, cos I wouldn’t consider myself to be a particularly mardy person, and I’ve been experiencing quite a lot of ‘growing pains’ more or less from the beginning, because of my scar from having Abigail by Caesarian and I knew full well that the pain I was in last week wasn’t that. So I went home and tried to rest etc as they advise, but it got worse, to the point where I was in agony most of the time. So last Saturday I rang the labour ward again, and they said to go in. When I got there, they realised I had, in fact, got a really bad water/kidney infection which explains the pain I was in! So I’ve now been on antibiotics for over a week (I needed a fortnights dose, because of how severe the infection was, and because there’s only certain types of antibiotic they like you to take when you’re pregnant) and I am feeling a bit better, slowly but surely. It did knock me off my feet, I was so tired last week, I felt like I did when I was about 10 weeks pregnant!

 

In other pregnancy related updates, baby is now moving more and more all the time! He’s got into quite a routine of when I know he’s going to be active and when he rests. Unfortunately, at the moment, he likes to start being active at around 10 pm so I’m struggling to get comfortable in bed. This doesn’t surprise me as I was exactly the same when I was having Abigail. I feel quite lucky to still be managing to sleep as much as I am, and believe me, I’m making the most of it! Because I suffered really badly with not being able to sleep at all when I was pregnant before. I think I am starting to look properly pregnant now, I was beginning to worry that I was never going to get a ‘proper bump’ and I was just looking like I’d put weight on around my tummy, but it’s definitely defining itself day by day! It seems to have come all at once though, one day a couple of weeks ago, I just woke up and there he was, poking out!! Lol! Ste came downstairs when he’d got up from nights and sort of did a double take of me and said ‘Where’s that come from like!’. Lol! I’ve been giving quite a bit of thought to the birth, as I think at my next midwife appt in a fortnight, we’re going to start going through my birthing plan. I’m very excited to do it naturally, but at the same time apprehensive cos although I’ve got Abigail, this will be the first time I go through labour. I’m quite worried about not knowing when I should be ringing the hospital etc, cos I don’t want to be the sort of person that rings at the first sign of any twinge or anything, if you know what I mean? I suppose I can raise all this with my midwife and she’ll be able to help with a lot of it. With regard to pain relief, I think I’m going to go for the gas & air and pethidine, but I really don’t like the thought of an epidural. I had the spinal block when I had Abigail and it really upset me that I couldn’t get up to her when she cried on that first night cos my legs were still numb, I don’t want that this time if I can help it at all! Again I can discuss it all with the midwife though can’t I?

 

I’ve started my new job now too, which could’ve been better timing cos I was still feeling really poorly and tired last week. But, I soldiered on, like the brave little girl I am! Lol! I started last Tuesday and I am really enjoying it! It’s so tiring though, getting used to being back in the routine of going to work! It didn’t help that Ste was on days last week so I was having to get up at 5 am to take him to work, so that I could have the car to get me to work! Fortunately, it was only for 3 days, I’m don’t think I could manage full time at the minute! Lol! I worked Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday last week, but my normal days will be Monday, Tuesday and Friday. I think I’m really going to enjoy the job. It’s a really friendly team and there seems to be plenty to do, once I learned how to do it all! They’ve been really good about me being pregnant too, I’ve sorted out a date to finish for my maternity, I wanted to work as close to my due date as I could, so I could have more time off with baby afterwards. So they’ve provisionally put my last day of work as the 19 December, which is only 13 weeks on Friday!

 

Abigail started back to school last week as well. She’s now in Year 2! I can’t believe it. She looks and seems all grown up. She’s 6 now too, it was her birthday at the end of August. I can’t believe she is 6, it only seems two minutes since she was a tiny baby and now I’m expecting another one! She came with us for the scan and she was soooo excited bless her. All along she’s been saying she wanted a little sister, so I was worried she’d be disappointed when we found out it was a boy, but she was thrilled! She came skipping out of the hospital singing “I’m going to have a baby brother”!! Which was lovely to see, I’m so glad she’s ok with it all!

 

Anyway, I better leave it there! Rambled for quite some time now haven’t I? I’ll try not to leave it so long next time!!

 

XxXxX

Back so soon…

Well it’s not been quite so long this time at least! I’ve got some good news on the job front. I went for an interview on Wednesday for a 20 hour secretary job in Chesterfield and they rung me Wednesday afternoon and offered it to me! I was slightly apprehensive at first because I hadn’t told them I was pregnant but I spoke to them today and explained my situation and the woman I spoke to said she didn’t think it would be a problem! So I feel very happy now! She did say she was going to check with HR and we’ll discuss it more when I take my health and CRB forms in on Monday, so I’ll know more then! It’s ideal though, with it just being 20 hours and it’s flexible. So as long as I work Monday and Friday (which is when they need me in the office) I can pick the rest of my hours. And it’ll be perfect for after baby is born too! It’s exactly what I wanted, so for me to actually get it, is quite amazing for me! Lol!

On the pregnancy side of things; I’m 16 weeks today and I’ve now started to feel baby moving, which is amazing! I’d forgot how good it feels, and how reassuring it is when you feel them fidgeting about, like just saying… I’m here mummy! I went to the midwife this morning to have the blood taken for the Downs Test, we should have the result next week. The midwife will get a letter on Friday and if it’s a high risk, she’ll come round to see me and arrange the amniocentesis (which obviously, I don’t want it to come to that) and if it’s a low risk, she’ll just send me a letter, so if I don’t see her on Friday, I think it’s safe to assume things are fine! She checked me out and everything while I was there, and we got to listen to the baby’s heart beat for the first time, which was amazing. Ste and Abigail were there too and it was a very special moment. We’d seen the heart beating on the scans obviously, but not heard it!!

 

Think that’s about all I’ve got to update you with, I’ll let you know about the job stuff next week… Still not found my dongle so can’t upload any pics yet!!!

 

See ya Soon XxXxX

Sometimes love just ain’t enough….

See, just when you thought I was getting better at updating… I’m not!! Lol!! 

I had a lovely week off around my birthday. It was so nice to spend so much time with Abigail and she really loved it too! It made such a refreshing change, I feel really guilty for leaving her while I go to work and I worry about the long term effects it will have on her, but what other choice have I got really? We didn’t do anything especially exciting, I had planned to take her on a couple of trips out to the zoo or something like that, but to be honest the weather wasn’t really up to it! So we’ll save that for her summer holidays, cos I’ve planned to have some time off while she’s off then as well! 

Then I had to come back to work though! It’s not that I don’t enjoy work, cos I’m loving it now, more than I’ve ever enjoyed a job before. I get on brilliantly with the two girls I sit with and it’s a laugh, but when you’ve had a week off it makes it hard to get up in the morning and come back! Things have been a little hectic at work just lately, cos there’s usually 2 people doing my job and at the moment there’s just little old me! Someone has been appointed though, and I’m in the process of training him up, so hopefully it won’t be long until he’s in post and things calm down a little! 

My bestest friend from when we were kids is having a baby! I’m soooo excited. I’ve known Jodie all my life and she did have some bad times in her teens and that, so to see her now, married, with her own house and now with a little baby on the way, it’s really nice. She’s asked me to be Godmother to little Baby Deakin when it’s born too, which is a HUGE honour, and of course I accepted! So I’ll be being a Godmother twice now, cos Carly’s asked me to be Godmother to her lil baby when he’s born too! How lucky am I? All these babies that I can cuddle and spoil, and most importantly, give back to their parents when they start crying!!!  

My mum’s foot is still strapped up, she went back to clinic and they’ve re-x-rayed it and it’s healing, just very slowly. So they’ve removed the pot and put this air boot thing on, that looks a bit like a moon boot! She’s starting Physio as well, but she’s also got to have a bone density scan cos they think she might have osteoporosis. Apparently cos she had a hysterectomy at a fairly young age, and has been on HRT since then, she’s more at risk to get osteoporosis! So that should be interesting…! 

The psychologist sessions are going well… I feel like I had a bit of a break through last week after going through a couple of weeks where I felt like I wasn’t getting anywhere and I was feeling really defensive about it, but this week the walls seem to have come down a bit and I finally feel like I might be making progress. I am very conscious that they ‘anniversary’ is approaching (May) and it’ll be 10 years this year which feels like it’s a bit of a milestone. Hopefully with the counselling and that I’ll cope better this year than I did last. And also with a bit of luck, and the grace of God I might not have all the other shit to deal with like I did last year as well, which will probably help! 

Not much else to report really…! Nothing happening on the romantic side of my life… But there’s no surprise there then! I’m fed up of being single and on my own now! So if anyone knows any decent single fella’s…. point them in my direction!! Lol… No I’m serious!! 

I’m all wireless… but am I a crap friend??

I’m not getting any better at this updating malarky am I?? 

Firstly, I want to apologise to all my friends… I’ve been a proper crap friend just lately! I’ve barely seen anyone for ages! I don’t know what’s been up with me, I’ve just been sort of stuck in a rut and I really didn’t feel like leaving the house, or making plans or anything. This isn’t an insult to them, I’m not saying I didn’t want to spend time with them, cos I love my proper friends to bits, I just didn’t want to spend time with ANYONE! I wouldn’t have been very good company anyway! So, like I said…. Sorry, I’ve been crap! But I promise I’m gonna be better now! I’m gonna try to catch up with everyone in this next week or so, which I’m really looking forward too! I know they’ve all had quite a lot on just lately as well! 

My cars all fixed and sorted now…! I didn’t have to pay the excess either cos the other woman has accepted full liability! I did end up with a hire car for nearly a fortnight! When they rung me to arrange it, they said I’d be getting something small, like my car.. they lied! They sent me a Grande Punto. I HATED it… It felt like driving a bus compared to my Micra! When they delivered it, it had next to no petrol in it, of course, so I went to try and fill it up and guess what… I couldn’t get in the fuel cap!! Grrr… I was well ragged off, stood in Tesco petrol station 10 minutes and I couldn’t get in! It was like summat out the matrix! Which, just fuelled my hatred of the car even further! Anyway, I just about got used to it in the end, but I was still glad to see it go on Saturday! That’s when I collected my car… I was soooo pleased to see it!!! Its bizarre really! But it was all nice and shiny outside and they’ve valeted it inside too!! I was well impressed!! 

That’s about the only bit of good news I’ve had though! Lol!

Mum’s still in pot! She’s back at clinic next week so we’ll find out then if she does need an op on it and what happens from there! I hope she gets sorted out soon, cos she’s doing my head in a bit to be honest! I know that sounds nasty, but she gets into these moods where she feels sorry for herself at the best of times… so you can imagine how she is now! She keeps moaning about Leanne, but she’s only been hat home one night a week (leanne I mean) cos she’s been at my Dad’s or the respite place every other night… so how can she moan about that…? Its that sort of thing that annoys me!  Works going really well. I’m getting on fantastically with the two women I sit with. We’ve become really close so we tell each other our problems and help each other out. Its nice, cos it makes work that bit more enjoyable! We have got a new person starting soon to do the same job as me, and he is a proper tithead (he already works in our office) so I don’t think that’s gonna be much fun! But we’ll see! 

I’ve been having some problems with my internet connection over the past couple of days… so I decided that now was as good a time as any to sort my wireless connection out!! I’ve had a right nightmare with it! I don’t know if I was just being female or what, but I couldn’t do it! So I rung someone more techie minded (thanks again for your help with that Nick… You’re a star!!) and after a 30 minute phone call finally got it up and running!! I’m thrilled with it!! It’s fantastic to be able to get online anywhere in the house!! Its fab!! 

Oooh… just a quick update on my brother, who has been discharged, but didn’t bother to let us know, so don’t know where he is now! And Drew’s Uncle, who got beat up. After it was touch and go for a while, he’s on the mend now, the Dr’s are astounded with his progress, he’s awake, breathing on his own and talking and he’s recognised everyone! So that’s another bit of good news!!

Anyway… enough rattling for now… See ya XxXxX  

Its not as bad now…

You might be pleased to hear that I am feeling slightly better about life in general at the moment. I still wouldn’t say I was jumping for joy with it all but I’m not ready to go and throw myself under a train or summat… well, not just yet anyway!

Works been good this week, I’m really quite busy at the moment and I will get more busy next week cos the other lady that does the same job as me is moving over to the Application Support side of our little department, leaving all the Data Quality stuff for me to do. I know I’ve complained in the past that I’ve been bored ad had nothing to do so I don’t really want to moan now that I’ve got plenty to do, but I’m thinking that it might get a little too much when it’s all GOT to be done ya know? And I don’t know if I can cope with the pressure at the minute, with everything else I’ve got going on!! Hmmm, we’ll see! They’ve advertised for the other Data Quality job so hopefully it won’t be too long til they get someone in post, but having said that whoever gets the job will need training before they can actually take some of the workload! 

I went for my Clinical Psychologist appt again on Thursday. It was very revealing again. I told her that I’ve been feeling really low and hopeless this week and I said sometimes I look at Abigail and wish I was young again and didn’t have to worry about anything anymore ya know? Well she then asked what happened in my life when I was Abigail’s age, and I’ve never considered this before, but that’s when my youngest sister (who’s disabled) was born, and because Leanne was a lot of work as a baby and Dad had to work, I had to look after Carly, which, as the Psychologist pointed out, is a huge responsibility for a 5 year old. This then carried on all through mine and Carly’s childhood. Mum was always so busy with Leanne that she didn’t have any time for us so I stepped up and was always there for Carly. In fact, one of Carly’s first memories is of me teaching her to read and write. When Carly was ill with Shingles, I suppose she was about 9, so I’d be 11/12 and Mum was also ill I stayed off school to look after Carly cos Mum ‘Couldn’t’ and I was telling the psychologist this and she said, ‘who looked after you when you were ill’ and again I’ve never really considered it but nobody did, I looked after myself and coped with things on my own from being so young. The psychologist then said that, that’s why when what happened to me, happened I didn’t tell anyone cos they wouldn’t have had time to look after me anyway. It still happens now as well really… I’m the first one any of them ring when they’ve got a problem and I’m expected to deal with it for them. Just this week, my brother’s been in hospital again so it was me that had to deal with that, Leanne has got herself in trouble and when Mum found out what’s the first thing she did? She rang me at work to see what she should do. But, if I’ve got a problem I feel like I’m not allowed to burden them with it, I have to deal with things on my own. And I know that if I’d have gone to my mum last week when Iwas feeling really low she’d have just told me to pull myself together. Just once I’d like one of them to deal with my problems for me.  

In happier news though… Carly’s Pregnant!!! We’ve known for a while now but I wasn’t allowed to say anything til she’d had her first scan, which was yesterday! She’s 12 weeks gone and is due in June next year!! Exciting ay? I’m gonna be an Aunty again! We went to Drew’s brother’s 21^st birthday party last night. It was a proper posh party and I got to wear a dead posh dress and go out looking like a laydeeeee!!! It’s possibly that after half a bottle of wine and several Smirnoff Ices that I didn’t behave like a lady though! It was a good night though… that is until Drew took me and Abigail home and his Uncle got a lift with us and he tried to grope me in the back seat of the car… this would be fine except he’s married, balding, more than a little overweight and nearly 50!! Wow, I’m a lucky girl really aren’t I??  

Good result for the Liverpool boys Wednesday night ay? 4 – 1 against Porto. Torres got two, Crouch got one and Gerrard got a penalty! We just need to win against Marseille in a fortnight and we’ll be through!! 

See y’all soon!!  

Pondering…. Stuff

I think I’m leaving it too long between posts again aren’t I? After some not so subtle hints from Chelle… Lol!! I decided I best get updating! 

I went to see the Clinical Psychologist last week, that was a weird experience. I’ve said before I don’t want to go into too much detail about why I’m going, but it was strange for me because, I got really worked up before I went and considered not going which I suppose is natural but once I was there and I obviously had to explain why I decided to go I got really upset and started crying. Now, obviously I’d anticipated that I’d probably cry at some point during the whole counselling thing, but this was within the first 5 minutes and I have very rarely cried about this subject, I’ve always been strangely detached and matter of fact about the whole thing. Maybe now I’m starting to accept it and the emotions are coming out though? I guess time will tell. But, the lady I saw did say something that struck a chord with me, she said that because I never dealt with this at the time it happened I’m still dealing with it as a 13 year old would… which sort of makes sense I think. Anyway, I’m going tomorrow for my next appointment so I’ll see how I feel after that but I think this issue is going to get worse for me, before it gets better, but maybe there’s a light at the end of a 10 year tunnel. 

Had a really quiet weekend, just chilled and relaxed! I think I needed that as well, it was good to just chill! I’m sleeping a little better now and feel better for that too. I wouldn’t go as far as to say I’m sleeping properly… But I’ve had a couple of nights where I’ve slept a couple of hours in the past week which is more than I’ve had for a few months. However, when I do sleep I have really vivid, disturbing dreams… I haven’t decided yet which is worse!!  

Works going really well as well. I’ve got a regular workload and a variety of different regular tasks to do so the days are passing quicker than they were. I’ve also gotten to know some of the women I work with better as well and we’re getting on really well, so that also makes the days a little brighter!! I’m even getting up earlier so get to work earlier!! Lol! However, Monday morning, my best laid plans failed (bet that shocks ya don’t it??) I was all ready and in the car for 8.10 am… then… the car wouldn’t start! Great stuff!! It seems the battery was flat but Dad was already at work so he couldn’t give me a jump as were Sue & Andy. Fortunately I have breakdown cover on my car insurance which includes Home Start so they came out within the hour and got me going again! So I was only half an hour or so late for work! That’s just about my luck just lately though isn’t it? 

I’ve got half day annual leave tomorrow, which I originally booked for my Clinical Psychologist appt, but now I’ve got Abigail in at the Dr’s and I’m hoping he’ll refer her up to the hospital this time so we can hopefully get on with getting her tonsils out and getting her on the mend!! Then I’m off Friday and Monday too which should be a nice break and it means I can spend some decent time with Abigail. I’m really proud of her (I’m always proud of her obviously but I’m even more proud of her now) cos this week she’s earned her ‘Crusader Badge’ at school. The Crusader thing is something all the kids in the school aim for by achieving 6 different targets, there are kids in the school a lot older than Abigail that haven’t got theirs, but she’s achieved all her targets and gets her badge in a special assembly in front of all the school from the headmaster!!!  

Anyway… That should about do it I think… I’m off to have a bath then watch the England Match… here’s hoping the boys can pull something out of the bag and get us into Euro 08!!!     

Fire on the 17th Floor!!

Well, we’ve all arrived home from Leeds fairly unscathed. Slightly knackered and hungover mind you, but we’re all back in one piece even if we probably don’t feel like it!! We had a MINT day! The minibus picked us up at just after 11 am and we were out for 1 pm. We didn’t get in again until 4 am!! So, like I said, I’m well knackered! We were staying in the Park Plaza in Leeds which is right on the main street. So, like I said, I’m well knackered! It was a laugh from start to finish and we got up to some right antics, but as one of the girls said “What happens on Tour stays on tour”, Although by 1 am she was saying “What stays on tour happens on tour” which, I suppose is nearly the same thing. We did pop back to the room briefly at about 6 ish for a quick shower, change and back out and Jackie had taken a bottle of Sambuco (sp?) with her and some shot glasses, so in our (drunken) wisdom, we decided to have flaming Sambuco, not a good idea as it turns out. Lorna had hers, but of course, seeing as it was on fire, the glass was a tad on the hot side and she dropped it, now she thought she’d blown the flame out but, no! The flaming Sambuco hit the floor and started a wee little fire!!! Well, we were jumping about like twats! Luckily Louise jumped into action and put the fire out! It was soooo funny! Needless to say, on the next round of shots we didn’t bother lighting them! Like I said, I thoroughly enjoyed it and it was definitely what I needed! We were out for both the football and the rugby and considering they were both great wins the atmosphere was fantastic! Although, it was a shame about the text I received half way through the night, that did put a dampner on my mood for a while, but I then decided not to let it bother me and enjoyed myself all the more for it! I thought my timing was bad though!

Works going ok now, I’m getting into quite a good routine and have got several ‘day-to-day’ tasks that need doing and that are keeping me occupied. It’s nice to be back into the routine of work as well though. I know where I am what I’m doing when I’ve got my routine! 

My Sisters a LOT LOT better now. She did have a slight set back mid-week, where she developed pleurisy along with the pneumonia she’d already got! But she’s on the mend now and provided she can manage the stairs test when the Physio’s assess her, I think they’ll let her home tomorrow!! 

Abigail’s ill now though. She started off with a cough but now her throat and ears are bad again too and she’s suffering with her breathing! So, we’re off to the Dr’s tonight at 4.30 pm meaning I’ve got to leave work an hour early and my manager is nowhere to be seen yet so I can’t confirm it! Great stuff! 

I received a letter on Friday, right, back in May I was referred to a ‘Clinical Psychologist’ for various issues and reasons that I ain’t getting into. Now, I was beginning to think they’d forgotten about me, but I as I say I got a letter Friday saying they’re sorry for the delay blah, blah, blah and would I still like to go. But the thing is, now I’m at a loss as to what to do. I want to be able to talk about the issues and reasons that got me referred in the first place and move on, but, and it’s a big BUT, I don’t ‘do’ talking about me and my feelings. I find it difficult to express the issue articulately so how I am going to cope sat in a room with a stranger for an hour talking about it? I am tempted to arrange the appointment to go for the assessment and take it from there, cos surely, this, Clinical Psychologist person will now if the sessions are right for me and if they stand a chance of working, don’t ya think? But, at the same time, I don’t want to open a can of worms and make things worse, at the end of the day I’ve managed 9 years living obliviously like it don’t affect so why change now? Hmmm, decisions, decisions! 

 

Anyway, it’s back to work this morning, even though I feel like I could sleep for a week! And the excitement that awaits me tonight? IRONING! I’ve only been doing what I need to get by all week with visiting Leanne so I’ve now got a Mountain of ironing to wade through! I did manage to get the house cleaned top to bottom on Friday though, so after I’ve done the ironing I’ll do a quick whip round with the hoover and I’ll be done! Tomorrow should be better though, me & Chelle are going round to Ally’s! I haven’t seen their new house yet cos of one thing and another so I’m very excited, and I’m equally excited to see Chelle and her bump cos I ant seen her for ages either!

 

See Ya Soon…

I’m baaaack!!!!

Hi again all… So, I’m back from holiday! Got back about 3 pm Sunday afternoon. We’ve had a lovely time. Abigail thought the plane was AMAZING!! She was the only one excited to be going back cos it meant that she could go on the plane again! She’s thoroughly enjoyed herself all week and has had everyone in stitches with her comical behaviour! I took a few pics on the mobile of her splashing in the pool and everything else she’s got up to this past week! It’s a good job I’d lost that stone in weight though before we went, cos I’ve put 4 lb on while we’ve been away! I’m starting afresh now I’m back at work though and hopefully keep off the rest of the weight I lost and lose some more!

 

       

 

These are the only ones I’ve got at work I’ll probably post some more later! Here she is in the pool, ready for a night out, one night when we went out for a drink and some ice cream and the last one she was fast asleep in bed on the morning we were coming home and I had to wake her up at 6 am! I just thought she looked soooo cute!

 However, things since we got back have not been so good. My youngest sister was a bit ‘off it’ when we were travelling back on Sunday but nothing too drastic ya know? But then when we got home she went downhill dramatically. She could barely breathe, she was really groggy and out of it. Monday morning, Mum phoned the Dr’s and got her an appointment for that afternoon, but in the meantime her condition kept getting worse. So, Mum decided to take her up to A & E to get her checked out. She’s now been admitted to the hospital as they’ve found out she’s got pneumonia!! She’s only 17! So yesterday was a complete nightmare, it got so bad at one point the Dr’s were asking us if we wanted her resuscitated if the worse came to the worse! My mum nearly collapsed when they said that! It was really scary sat there watching struggling to breathe and her not being able to acknowledge we were there! My mum has rung me this morning and said that my sister does seem to be doing a lot better! Hopefully she’s responding to the antibiotics and is now on the mend! So, I’ve come to work (I’ve got to show willing haven’t I really seeing as I’ve been off for 3 weeks!) and Mum’s keeping me informed! At the end of the day, if she does take really bad again I’m in the hospital and Mum will let me know so I’m literally 2 minutes away! 

On the work note, how glad am I to be back? Erm, not at all! There’s still nothing at all to do so looks like I’ve got an exciting day in store! I am glad to be back in the routine of coming to work and everything, it’d just be nice to have something to do when I get here! 

Just a quick note on my last entry, I’m not gonna dwell on it, but, so far, there doesn’t seem to be any ‘fall out’! No ones said that they know anything… Hmmm, I think I’d be slightly delusional to believe it’ll stay like that but here’s hoping ay? 

I’m off to Leeds on Saturday (All being well with my sister of course)! I’m really looking for to it, I’m going with our Sue and a load of the girls for a days partying basically! I plan to get absolutely rat arsed drunk cos we’re staying overnight in a hotel and Abigail’s staying at mum’s! I’ve ordered two new tops to pick from and some new jeans!

   <—– Which one do ya like best? 

Err, don’t get me started on the shite performances Liverpool have been churning out in the last week or so! Losing 1 – 0 to Marseille, at Anfield! Can’t get over how bad they performed that night, they’ve got to do some serious work to qualify for the later stages of the Champions League now! Then drawing 2 – 2 to Spurs at Home on Sunday!! Pants!! 

I’ve been pondering things in this last week, probably due to the amount of free time I’ve had on my hands! I’ve been thinking about how I’ve acted towards certain people in the past few months and I’m properly ashamed of how I’ve behaved. I was cold and at times not at all friendly and looking back I can’t believe how I was. I know it’s not an excuse, but I have had a lot (I seem to have had a lot on for over a year now!), and I may have been hasty in some of the decisions I’ve made and I regret that now, I don’t think I gave it a chance, but, as is ever my luck, it seems I’ve realised too late and there’s nothing I can do about it now! The situation has changed and people move on (invariably, to other people). Maybe I’ll learn my lesson, and recognise a good thing when it’s in front of me from now on! 

Anyway, that’s enough for now. See ya Soon XxXxX 

It’s Just A Little Crush

So, now you’re all up to date with the events of the last week or so I can ramble on about other crap again! By the time I’d filled ya in on everything I’d been doing last week I had no time to fill ya in on what’s been going on in my brain!!

 I have a crush on someone, in a big way! I mean a full blown teenage crush! I haven’t experienced anything like this since I was about 14 and started seeing Abigail’s dad! You know the sort where when you go past somewhere they’re likely to be, like work place or house (I pass both of these on my way to and from work) and you get excited, just in case you see him!?! That’s what I’ve got… I’ll explain a bit further although I don’t want to say who he is just yet, nobody who reads this will know him anyway so there’s really no point!! When I went to the club with Sue last Friday he was in and we were sort of chatting a bit, but in a big group type thing! Nothing out of the ordinary, expect I remember looking at him and thinking ‘He is HOT’ but only in a passing thought. Anyway, then Bank Holiday Monday Sue & Andy went over to the club for the afternoon and he was there, and apparently, Sue said, he was ‘snooping’ about me. Asked if I was seeing anyone and he also asked her if she thought it was worth him sort of trying it on with me. Sue said to him, something along the lines of ‘why would ya treat her right’ and he said he’d treat me like a princess! So that set me off thinking! And its sort of escalated from there…  I’ve seen him a couple of times since then and he’s definitely been looking and smiling at me more than you would normally. Anyway, Sue must’ve said something to Andy cos he text me Friday night while we were at mum’s and he was at the club and said ‘told *** ya like him’ but he won’t tell me what he said! Now though, I don’t know what I’m gonna do about it, we won’t be going to the club this weekend cos it’s Butlins (woo hoo) so it’ll probably be next Friday before I see him properly to talk to, but, then I know I’m gonna get dead shy, and Andy is absolutely BOUND to cause a scene and embarrass me! Hmmm, guess I’ll just have to watch this space!! 

It’s Abigail’s first day back at school today! And she’s going to be a big girl in Year 1 now. It’s still the same teacher but instead of being one of the littlest, she’ll be one of the biggest now! She looked soooo grown up with all her uniform on this morning! (I’m going to post a picture later but I’m blogging at work now – naughty ay?) I can’t wait to get home so she can tell me all about it! 

Works being going well this week, I’ve had a variety of different tasks to do so the days have been passing relatively quickly. People are talking to me more so that helps too! I’m not making any firm decisions as yet, I’m keeping my options open as they say! 

Chelle came over for a cuppa last night. It was lovely to see her, I can’t believe how big she’s getting! She’s really blooming now (or bolloming as she put it! Lol!) And even though it sounds a while to her due date in the middle of November, when you think about it, it’s not that long at all! Baby Hough will be here before you know it! 

I took Abigail to Asda Monday night to get the last bits and bobs she needed to start back to school, and guess who we saw outside? Only Daddy and his girlfriend!! He completely blanked us though, he was coming out as we were going in and he looked at me, then at Abigail and blanked us! I could kick myself for not saying anything now, but I didn’t want to cause a scene and confuse Abigail!! Tosser, although I had to laugh yesterday cos apparently he’s crashed his car (again) and wrote it off (again)!! He’s had about 6 new cars since passing his test 5 years ago and has crashed all of them and wrote them off, plus one of his Dad’s!! See, and some people don’t believe in Karma!!! Ha Ha Ha!! 

That’s about it for now guys… A relatively short post for you in comparison to the last few ay? Ooh, just so ya know, I’ve updated the dream page for the first time in a while too!! 

Catch ya later X xXxX